Journal #67, September 27: Regrets

It looks like a lot of these posts are me repeating myself. Maybe it is but my intention is to look at different aspects of my gay slut journey so please keep that in mind when you start to get bored of reading the same old thing...that is if you still feel like reading what I have written lol!

When I picture myself on my deathbed and I'm contemplating my life and all the choices I've made and haven't made, and we assume I've never done anything with a guy, I don't regret it too strongly.

But right now I regret not doing it when I was in college! It was probably the most tolerant and supportive environment for that I'd ever experience. Aside from a relatively more visible LGBT population there was more understanding and acceptance of queerness than out "on the streets" with older adults included with their outdated and toxic morality.

A more visible LGBT population meant a lot of guys to choose from! Of all the hundreds of guys in the dorms, even a small percentage who were into guys or even curious enough to go for it would mean plenty to meet! Inevitably we would shuffle around campus, meeting, noticing we like guys, and each other, spending a night of sweaty passion together, and forming some special friendships that may have lasted to this day. I would've had some pleasant memories for sure!

It would've been a great age for this too, when my body was young and I was horny all the time! I could've been having so much sex with guys not only because there would've been so many guys to have sex with but also because I'd physically be able to. With all that sex I would develop some good skills in bed, which I consider important with any lover I have.

A lot of sex would've also been helpful to deal with all the sexual frustration I had. Maybe I would've done better in school and just in life if I didn't have horniness poking at me all the time. Another guy at that age would have no problem understanding that, and I'm sure he'd wanna do it with me all the time!

Another thing is I'm a bit of a sapiosexual and I would assume college would have some bigger percentage than the general population. I enjoy and appreciate sex on that other level and would love to be with others who understand this.

But to be picky, regret implies you had a choice and you didn't make it.

It wasn't until the very end of college I even considered sleeping with a guy (and that's another long discussion). Until then the idea repulsed me. It's not a choice that came to mind or I was ever inclined to make so technically it's not really a regret.

At this point of my life, however, I know guys turn me on so not having sex with them is subject to being regrettable. And they say regretting what you haven't done is worse than regretting what you have, so I hope on my deathbed I regret having sex with guys, many , many times.

 

It’s never too late , there is endless opportunities out there …men are easier to hook up with them women …No drama
All of my hook up have been in person, nothing online …there are sooooo many men desires and sexual needs are not fulfilled ..you look out for the clues