More Conclusions.

I do have a tendency as I have said to overgeneralize, to make associations and connections were there are none, to assume people know things that they don't. To do things like miss social cues and then not realize that the social cues I am trying to make are not clear enough. Or to not realize I am living in a very different time. That last one meaning that I sometimes forget how things in my life have changed and how things like the information people have may have changed. Right now I keep getting the feeling that I am living in 2004, and that nothing has changed. That early millennia period in my life and in US history. Maybe the fact I was back at Sinai-Grace hospital recently has something to do with it. But it seems like that just happened, and that I am still in that situation. Even though the rational part of my mind knows how long ago that was.

The best thing for me, for anyone to do, as I've said is just relax and don't panic and don't act rashly. And try not to jump to the wrong conclusions. But I really have no choice in my life to make some quick conclusions, if only for my well being. And the police, Wayne County Court and Eric have proven they don't mind lying and deceiving, even in very unethical ways, even in ways the law shouldn't allow and even if it hurts someone. I'm not trying criticize again, it's only true and I have to realize that. The physical damage that was done to me, the danger I am in, the fact a couple of years have passed and absolutely nothing is being done. No one cares and no one is being held responsible.

One thing that has change or that may have changed is that the people in my life, the people exploiting me actually, are aware of them now. Like that case I was just sharing at Oakwood Hospital. They were trying to convince us patients, or maybe me, that vulnerable people like that poor blind woman Evelyn should just shut up and accept their abuse. But like that novel a Christmas Carol says, no they don't. The Evelyns and the poor and destitute of this world don't have to take responsibility for the abuse, the Scrooges of this world and the abusers do. We focus on the abusers alone, they are the ones with character flaw not us, they are the ones who need to change and reform not us. And as to how they change their behavior, they find a way. Like with George W. Bush and waterboarding. It was torture plain and simple. Physical and emotional pain and humiliation of any kind are unacceptable. They are beyond civilized behavior. And it doesn't matter if they are more effective, it doesn't matter if you are the United States and you think you are God and can do whatever you want. You just find a way, and find a better way to accomplish your goals. And like the other themes of justice, and unfair treatment in my life. Those have be recurring themes throughout my life. And then in 1992 they introduced me to the idea of being falsely accused of something. With that incident with occupational therapist Diane in the occupational therapy room. False accusation are never justified and never right. There is no reason why anyone would ever have to do them. And if someone is, it's because they know people wouldn't support them if they knew the truth. And plus how could someone like me defend myself against something like that? Especially if I didn't even know what was being said about me, because it was behind my back? Like the golden rule says, how would you like if someone did that to you? Or someone you loved?

There's nothing I can do about any of those things above. And now the police and Wayne County Court have forever shortened my life too. But maybe I'll get some outside help. Maybe some divine help even, like I used to believe when I was younger. To end this 50 year nightmare I have been going thru and let me retire in peace. And to make sure this never happens to anyone ever again.