More Thoughts.

Like I've said, my words are falling on deaf ears. But I think I have a good point. I think all the people who have harmed me and abused me throughout the years, and that now included Wayne County Probate Court and the police of several cities, owe damages. Owe me damages to make sure I am always well-cared for and happy and have all the things I need. A peaceful good quality of life with the very important things of independence at home, a nice car always, reasonable luxuries from time to time also, and no requirement to work. Because I'm 60 and I just can't. I don't think I ever could and it's much too late to talking about that now anyways. Because I have been abused since I was a child. Part of my childhood was stolen away from me. And all of my high school years when I had no social life and a rather poor quality of life in ways like that. Then in late 1989 I became well and free and I had the chance to enjoy life again and live the life I always wanted. Which like I said for me was always a simple life with simple things that usually don't even cost much. But then the abuse began again. And the horrible threats. I wonder what quality of life I really had then because something was always there to spoil it. Even early one. And then in 2004 in Sinai-Grace hospital a new form of horrible abuse began that drew on my irrational fears and drew on the fact I was a marginalized, weak, handicapped person with little power over my life again. And now all I want is to live the rest of my life in peace and quiet. But they won't let me. Instead they still abuse me. That is what all of this is, I know it is. And plus I am still being treated with very little respect and like I have very little worth in people's eyes. That I am treated this way to begin with, and then no one listens to me on top of that. Or they say it's somehow my fault that I spoke out against the abuse. This is just a new form of abuse, I know it is. I was hoping the abuse could finally end. But I guess this is the answer I get to that. That one lady laughed that I am getting too old for the abuse. But she was wrong, because I am getting too old for the abuse. I'll be 60 shortly, I am damaged and have serious physical symptoms. And now I am helpless and alone with no one to help me in any way now and no one to turn to at all, for the first time in my life. I was hoping things would get better now especially now that I have exposed all of this. But it is only getting worse. Much worse in fact. And people are claiming that they are concerned about me and my welfare. Then they shouldn't treat me the way that they do. We are not living in 1843 England. Just because you keep someone alive and breathing but in some terrible situation doesn't mean you have done your duty by them. And people have claimed all my life that they are concerned about things like my attempting suicide in the past. When they drove me to suicide thru their abuse in other words. If people are so concerned about my life they should consider my quality of life and stop treating me this way. Stop making me live under horrible threats and horrible abuse and then claim they care about me. And I think people like Wayne County Probate Court and the Detroit police do owe me damages, including things like all the care I need and a nice car. I know they don't agree and want think I can handle all that on my own once again, like in 2005. But I really can't handle that all that on my own. And I am much more damaged now and much more older than I was in 2005. And now I have to deal with all of this. I don't know why people who did this horrible permanent physical damage to me along with all the psychological abuse, and then having me left in my present horrible situation all alone, wouldn't have any legal obligation towards me. And it would seem they would still have some real moral one. Even if clearly I can tell they don't agree and are just planning more stuff now, the police and others.