More Thoughts.

It's a funny thing about 2004. It seems like it just happened. When I was hospitalized a couple of times in 2004, I met a number of interesting people with interesting stories. It seems like that just happened. But that was a long time ago and they have all moved on and their lives are very different now. I don't know why it feels like it just happened. Maybe because I was back at Sinai-Grace hospital recently and it seems like a continuation of that time in that way. Plus for some reason I keep thinking Livonia Mall in Livonia, MI is still open. After briefly closing, it's weird. We used to go there Sundays after we ate, but it closed for good in 2008. I guess again it seems like a continuation of that time and that is why I think it briefly closed and then opened. But I have to keep reminding myself of that. Yeah, Livonia Mall was interesting in that I saw a lot of police working their on their off time, and it gave me a unique view of those people. They weren't at all like I thought up to that moment. Homophobic, killing animals for the fun of it like they did in Detroit for a while, cruel, etc. They seemed accepting of gays and they were having a drive to buy a police dog a bulletproof vest at one point. I was surprised by all of that and it shaped, or rather reshaped, my view of police after that. And also another thing that makes now different from 2004 is that I lost a lot of people, in other words a lot of relatives, some who helped me a lot. My father, my Aunt Grace and her husband, my Uncle Chet and Aunt Irene and many others. They were all alive then, alive and healthy and like themselves as I remember them as a child in their youth. But they have all passed on since then.

Also speaking of my unique way of thinking sometimes, you know I was thinking. I do tend to piece things together that don't belong together, make associations where there are none and then just use that information from that point forward like it's reliable even though it really isn't and has never been proven. I make that mistake often. But I think it is mainly when I have very little information and am in a desperate situation. I think most people probably do that actually.