Where Things Are Now.

Like I said, people will do many things to me now. But they'll never get me to believe that my words are what destroyed my life now. Made Eric leave me and make me totally helpless and alone for the first time in my life, with no one to turn to, in any way. I'm damaged and I'll need lifetime care, I'm treated lower than the worst criminal, even though I did nothing wrong. The things they did to me, damage me with medical care and keep it from me, deny me all access to the legal system, lie to me repeatedly even when they know I know the truth by now, not give me the slightest degree of help even though normally legally there would be no doubt who is to blame and who should take responsibility for my care and quality of life from now on. Except now I'm told they may dump me in a Detroit group home to be neglected and to be out of the public's sight for life. Because we seem to be still living in 1843 and A Christmas Carol now. My words have so much power? No, my words have no power at all. I have no power at all. No power, no status, no worth in people's eyes. How could my words have so much power when I don't. How could my words only have the power to do that when they've done nothing else up till now? Do they really think I'll believe that? This is actually why I think my signal is being intercepted. Because words have no power at all and don't have any of the effect you'd think they would. That along with the fact I'm a treated so horribly, worse than anyone ever could. Just like in Oakwood Hospital in 1988 and 9. That's why I thought until 2011 maybe it was an illusion of some kind. And I told my therapist how it must be an illusion. But he explained to me it wasn't, it really happened. All the abuse in my life he explained, one-by-one, happened just as I witnessed it the first time. I'm helpless and totally alone, I'm treated like this, and when I try just to resolve the matter like anyone, things get worse and I am treated even worse, much worse. A new form of abuse is clearly what it is, and I plan on spending the rest of my life proving that. All I asked was to be left alone in my old age to live a peaceful life. To live a happy life, and I would live a happy, perfect life if they just stopped the abuse. I always would have. But this is the answer I get to that request. That's why I sometimes wonder about the coincidences still. They almost seem to suggest I do have some importance in this world. Maybe I do have some importance, value, worth, place in this world and benefit to this world, important status. All of those things but not just that others can't see, but that I never saw in myself. That people treat me this way as having no status or worth and then discard me. But maybe the coincidences are saying that they are wrong and I was right all along. And I offered an apology to Eric. If my words have the power to destroy my life for good and leave my life this, why wouldn't doing that have the power to set everything right then? Why would my words suddenly have so much power and then suddenly go back to having no power at all again when I offer to do a logical thing like that?