Words.

Like I've said, I'm kind of confused by people's reaction to things. Sometimes they are not at all what I'd expect. And sometimes they just don't make any sense at all.

Like online now. People's reaction to Eric leaving me. People seem to blame me for complaining too much. I'm permanently damaged, I've lost all access to the justice system, I've been treated unfairly and abused my whole life, my kidneys may be failing one doctor says, I don't know what the future holds. I'll probably need special care eventually. Which no one feels responsible to give, despite how negligent and horrible they were in causing it. Or their solution is stick me somewhere out of sight and out of mind. Kind of like in Charles Dickens' A Christmas Carol. Etc. etc. But people really don't behave that way anymore. Making me wonder if my internet signal isn't being intercepted. And I'm supposed to blame myself for the rest of my life? I'm supposed to think my life was ruined by what I said? How could that be. As I just described, my words have no power. People just ignore them no matter what I said. And I did offer to apologize to Eric online. And that offer is still good. Why isn't that enough if my words are the reason why my life has been destroyed? Why it's over with now?