Finally had a proper climax

For years I’ve been completely incapable of having a proper orgasm when I masturbate alone. I’ll ejaculate multiple times but it’s always sudden (often while I’m still completely flaccid) and all I can feel is a sharp urgent tickle just inside the tip of my pee hole and the sensation of the inside of my penis contracting and pumping out my semen, which only oozes out slowly for a minute.

Since there’s no euphoric buildup to the ejaculation, there’s no pleasant rush of release in a mental kind of way, and therefore no actual relief and I get trapped in a vicious cycle of always still feeling just as frustrated and horny as I did to start with.

But last night, I decided I was gonna get off no matter what it required. So I took 30mg of Cialis, put my favorite anal vibrator inside myself and went to town on my penis using my best wand vibrator. It went on forever, as I stayed totally flaccid and felt nothing at all.

Finally, I started to get about 60-70% erect and switched from PornHub to sexy photos an ex-GF sent me a few years ago. After about a minute looking at the nude pics and focusing super hard on her vagina, I could feel myself getting close. It wasn’t particularly intense and the buildup only lasted a few seconds. But was definitely a noticeable buildup nonetheless. I didn’t try to hold it back and pressed my vibrator even harder into the ridge of my penis and let myself blow, which turned out to be a proper ejaculation where I shot a full load all over my bedding in four strong squirts.

Afterward, it was the first time I actually felt relaxed and finished, I shut my laptop and had no need to play with myself any further. Thank goodness!