Journal #51, April 24: A same sex crush (NSFW)

I don't really have anyone else to share this with in "real life" so I'll share it here: I currently have a crush on a younger guy! I've never met him and I doubt I ever will, and guys in their 50s with dad bods are probably not his type. But I have to be honest with myself and I'm working on being in touch with my feelings especially when it comes to my homosexual desires. I like like him!

I don't know much about him, so I don't have much to go on with him, but the attraction is there, though I do realize it's only an attraction. He has a profile on one of the hookup sites out there (not this one as far as I know). He's a 21 year old twink and he's gay according to his profile. It also looks like he lives near me.

And he looks adorable from the few pictures he has! He has a beautiful body. Actually I wrote to him that he looks great in underwear and out of it. Unfortunately he didn't respond but he didn't block me either, so maybe a night of passion with him isn't ruled out? I really hope so!

But I'd want to go out on a proper date with him first, have a chance to get to know each other a little while building up sexual tension with each other, teasing each other secretly while everyone around us has no clue.

His profile says he's into cuddling which is great. One of his pictures shows him stretching his ass, and yes, I want to put my cum inside him, and make him cum so much he can't take it anymore, but I also long to press his smooth, divine body against mine while we share a passionate soul kiss and get really close together even if it's just for one hot night, though I'd love to have future dates in the shower, camping, and spending time together in other secluded places where no one else would bother us and we could be free to play with each other, cum and kiss.

 

When are you gonna ask him out?

 

I suppose I should, shouldn't I? I have nothing to lose. The next time he's on, I guess. All I've done is compliment his good looks.

 

Yes, I suppose that you should; can't hurt anything, can't lose anything, and who knows - maybe he'd like a dad bod to roll around in the sack with! Shit, I haven't been with a young twinky guy in a long time...

 

I asked the guy if he'd consider going out or hooking up with me. He didn't respond either way. I'm disappointed but not broken hearted. I'll live and move on. At least I tried. But I'm still horny lol.

 

All you can do is ask, right? No answer? Keep it moving...

 

I'm sorry he didn't respond. But there are gorgeous young Twinks out there who love the daddy thing. You can try silverdaddies for example. You're not quite there like I am at 62 and with white hair and short white beard, but there are young guys on there that you might develop a crush on, and vice a versa. I can't tell you how hot I find the feelings and desires you shared with us about this young man. I can totally appreciate them, and I have felt the same for a number of guys on hookup site profiles and in person.

In fact, I fell absolutely in love with this 22 year old twink boy's body in a bathhouse in Berlin that I visited on a trip, the first time ever having such feelings for a guy's entire body and not just his cock. I especially went crazy on his ultra cute ass, and tonguefucked his hole for over an hour before finally losing my gay virginity and fucking him. It was the greatest sexual experience of my life and changed everything for me. Now I do everything with guys, like we all do with women, and love it so much. I've even developed romantic crushes on a couple different guys, though both unrequited.