Pride & proud - mental health

Wanted to share my thoughts not sure if anyone else can attest …..
I’m very proud and feel great as person past few years navigating this lifestyle has been wild and conflicting and some mental health burden of our dynamics and identity.

As bi/gay ..leaning gay …I feel soo good that I have urges and get hard to sexy hot chick as well to a hot and sexy hunk….although I have had more mm then FM ..I feel my sexual needs and being able have fun and wife supporting me and elevating my gay path is super greatful

As we celebrate pride, i can appreciate ppl who are navigating this.

 

Thank you so much for sharing! I totally agree with you. Accepting the gay side of yourself is such an important step, I find, for all bisexuals, but few can achieve it. There's this internalized homophobia that we all have. The more you just accept yourself as you really are, the more you begin to like yourself as you really are. Nothing is more true than with the gay side of yourself.

I had conflicting feelings with my anonymously sucking hundreds of cocks for 21 years in gay sex venues like bathhouses, even developing cognitive dissonance over it. I always had huge desires at home for everything anal with a guy, but it all would disappear when I got naked with a real guy. I'm not saying anal sex is for everyone, but clearly it was something that my gay side really wanted. But I now understand it was my internalized homophobia that prevented it. But finally my anal desires didn't vanish, when in 2013 I hungrily devoured a guy's ass with my tongue and cock for over an hour, loving every moment of it. It was the greatest sexual experience of my life, and changed everything for me, as I stopped all anonymous sex and just got together with local guys in each other's homes. That one sexual act turned a switch inside me, and I not only began accepting the gay side of myself, but loving it. And loving my newfound identity--biconfused to bisexual.

Gradually over the next 10 years I accepted the gay side of myself more and more, until I realized that I've actually been 95% gay from the beginning. I now identify as a gay man, and actually have had no interest for the last five years in ever having sex, let alone romance, with another woman. I've even developed romantic crushes on a couple different guys, though unrequited. I love and feel very proud of my homosexuality, and look forward to close friends with benefits or even love relationships. I've even come out to a number of my friends, and will do so to my close family and relatives if I should ever get a boyfriend.

 

Love your postive mindset ….I love how you have navigated this and accepted who you are internally. I applaud you for this ..,,

it took time and many mental health issues internalizing I’m also attracted to men and like to everything with them not jus sucking cocks.

As much I love my wife and here and there sex with wife …I have far more mm encounters , enjoying the element of mm romantic sex…

Last month I joined as an ally group at work with pride group as committe member ….we have had few meetings, I wanted to give back and wanted to be involved meeting ppl ..that can land new opportunities as well..

thankfuly I met this Hispanic sexy handsome gay hunk, who super flirtes with me as he was new to the company asked me to be his mentor .

He asked if we can go for drinks and wanted my advice ..,keep you posted ..not sure this is going but …looking forward to the company