Letter Recently.

I got a letter recently from the police commission. I haven't looked at it too carefully yet and I put it upstairs in the pile of important stuff like that. But says again my case doesn't exist. None of those things happened and they can't do anything because they therefore see no wrongdoing here. I can't believe how outrageous all of this is. And how long it has gone on. How long it has been going on and how long it continues even after it has been exposed. And as far as I know absolutely nothing is being done to help me. And I will need lifelong care. And people need to be held accountable so I get that. And responsible for what they did to me too. What they did to me and anyone else either. All in secret of course. Others unlike me might not even know it's happened. At this point most the people in my life admit Eric is my secret legal guardian. So if anyone says that he isn't to me, I know they are lying about that. You aren't even allowed to do that to the worst criminal. Lying under oath, deceiving, having someone enter false contracts and have them lied to about their legal status, have them harmed by their doctors and them have them all coerced into silence about it. And what did I do? I'm a good person and I've never been in trouble with the law. And I'm not a danger to myself or others. So what could justify such a thing? But they can't tell me, it's still a secret. Or they think I don't have the capacity to make my own decisions. Anyone reading this can tell I am rational and of reasonable intelligence. It's all outrageous and none of it makes sense. And I may never find out what is happening or why. And plus as I've said, I'll never really know when it's over with. I'll always have to assume people are lying to me. Even when it hurts me and others in some way.

And now I am left without any family and emotional support, now that Eric says he's done with me. And I'll have no one to make the serious and painful medical and other decisions that may have to be made for me some day. Just some court or some legal guardian I never met or heard of. And I'll have some serious and painful medical decisions to make. Serious and painful medical decisions I never would have to have made before. And I'll need my full medical consent restored for that. I'll need money to pay for all of that. And I may be faced with some serious and painful end of life decisions some day that I never would have been faced with before. All while trying to live some quality of life. Trying to live a quality of life after a lifetime of abuse like I've described. Abuse that continues even now along with people blaming me yet again for complaining and demanding to be treated right. And still no one seems to care and nothing is being done it seems.