More Conclusions.

Like I've been telling people for over twenty years now, if I lost my car I'd lose everything. My life as I know it would be over. So I am not going to let anyone do that to me, take away my car, for any reason. Not even if the reason at the time makes sense at the time for some reason. And now I realize. The same is true about going to any place, even an old age home when I get old. I'd lose all my rights there, I'd lose all my consent, I'd lose all my contact with the outside world, I'd be horrible neglected and I'd be threatened and abuse as a defenseless gay man with Cerebral Palsy. I used to think maybe when I got very old I'd allow that. But now I realize even that isn't an option. (What to do if I come down with dementia and need at least assisted living, I don't know. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.)

And like I was telling them in the hospital recently, putting me in a group home or even moving me some place else is just a clever ploy to take away my car. So I am not falling for it, not ever. The car thing started and always was about taking my independence, my consent, my power or this situation, probably a lot of things. And to make things confusing, it was also a form of abuse in itself. (And like I said, Eric and my neighbors still seem to be thinking about it for some reason.) Also as a new patient's rights abuse claim, I am looking into this suggestion that in Michigan when you are abused and neglected by your guardian they support him and allow him to leave. Obviously I can't have that. There was never enough money in the trust for me to live on to begin with. And now with all the expensive things I will need with the permanent damage that I didn't even know about 10-20 years ago. Because if I did, if my right to know was respected, I could have done something about. Possibly just secretly stop taking that horrible Olanzapine. Or getting others involved at least. I also had other people in my life then. My father, my aunt, other relatives who are dead now, that could have done something if they knew then. Eric can't be allowed to leave. Not now or ever, because I need him now more than ever. Besides what kind of a human being would do that? Leave me at a time like this. My washing machine and microwave still look like they were deliberately vandalized. I will need a new washing machine very soon. I will probably be needing a new car soon too. That one I have is getting very old now. And Eric almost killed my cats of dehydration. All he ever had to do was sign over the occasional check, which he could easily afford. And now if he leaves now, without that money I will become homeless for sure, I'll lose everything, probably even worse than that. I'm sure that my next guardian will see a horrible group home in Detroit as an affordable option. And like I said, I can never allow that. Eric does all those horrible things and more, he acts a disgusting human being, he wants to leave me at the worst possible time. And in Michigan you are supported and rewarded for that kind of behavior? Like I said, that couldn't be. I know this is just a new clever form of abuse, and I am going to treat it that way from now on too. But it sounds like he is about to get away with it too, kind of how it seemed around 2011 I was about to lose my car for good. Also at a time in my life when I could least afford it, with my father dead then. Something about all of that just couldn't be right. I am going to look into to it. But I don't know. I was fighting the car thing since 2005, and I was having no success with that, because people just didn't listen to me no matter how I explained or begged. Eric can't be allowed to leave under any circumstances, now or ever. And I still want him to face some jail time. For the way he treated me up till now, and now for all of this new stuff too. But I guess I will have to wait and look into it first. Because like I said, now I am being told in Michigan the law protects abusers. I have limit say in this, limited rights, limit access to legal counsel and plus my case still doesn't even exist. But that still couldn't be right.