More Conclusions.

As I said, my legal guardian Eric is still trying to convince me he in fact is not my legal and never was. It's preposterous, he keeps telling me. Even though all my doctors admit he is. And people online tell me there are no such things as secret guardianships in the US. That's preposterous, they tell me. But I will not play along, not now or ever. And part of the reason is because I am supposed to accept that dangerous Olanzapine, and the situation I am in where is will now damage me more, even at very low doses I recently learned, all while they don't even tell me anymore what his happening to my body with that stuff. People have told me one solution is that I just pretend to take it. That is one option for a person receiving care outpatient, to secretly not take their meds. I learned in 1995 from that law dictionary, and possibly even before and in more than one place, that's called a de facto right. (Boy I'm pretty smart for someone who can't tie their shoes, aren't I?) And then to pass a possible secret blood test or urine test that disgusting court may use against me the next time I go to one of my doctors, just take it for a week ahead of time. That is no option, that is no solution. And as I said, even in small doses that stuff is dangerous. And thanks to all the damage they caused me, I am seeing a lot of doctors now. Often three a month. By my math I'd still be taking it most of the year. No, that is not an option at all. And now this is becoming the abuse of an old man, and I have to consider the possibility of an old age home with that, or possibly being led away in cuffs to a group home, again when I least suspect it like July 22, Eric and his rich lawyer brother tell me. No, that is not and never will be an option. To be blunt, once again I am just too smart to fall for that nonsense, yet again. They will end all secrecy, they will end the secret guardianship. Which as I keep saying, I will never know. But who is responsible for that? They will remove the order that I must take stuff that I never even consented too and is in no way justified in my case, and all involved with be held accountable for all of this, for a lifetime of this really, or at least be exposed for what kind of disgusting human beings they are. I'll see to that, if no else has the guts to. I'm more strong than people think sometimes, sometimes even more so than I think.

And my former therapist made it clear the real reason why this all remains. To keep people from getting into a lot of trouble. Exactly, I told that court and others. I'd rather spend the limited time I have left enjoying some quality of life, and recovering all the years they and all those other disgusting human beings involved took from me. But if I have spend it doing this instead, so be it. It will be time well spent. Along with all the costly, and I now have discovered pointless, notary publics I have to pay for. You are all going held accountable, don't count me out yet.