More Problems At The Library.

There was also something weird and troubling that happened in Dearborn February 26, 2003 at the library. I think it was the Esper Branch on Warren Avenue. My father and I were about to go see the movie Star Trek: Nemesis. And it was in the middle of the day with a fairly crowded library. I was in my email account viewing and printing some risque pictures of a man. Now I have to emphasize carefully, the pictures were not pornographic and did not show nudity. (I even held onto them after this incident. I still have them in my attic to keep a record of what happened.) Anyways, they were not pornographic but they were risque as I said. And I heard this little boy talking to the librarian at the desk saying some man was looking at another man and he was obviously gay. And it frightened him, he said, saying he feared that kind of behavior. Homosexuality IOW. I thought nothing of it and assumed he must have been talking about someone else. Then I made the prints there, which again I emphasize didn't even show nudity. And this older female librarian came up to me hysterical and said, hand them over! Hand them over! We have rules in this library! We have rules! Right away I thought she must have thought I did something I didn't. I actually thought that for years because I was very confused by what happened. And she was making a scene in a crowded library like I said. And plus like I pointed out, Dearborn has a large conservative Muslim population. They are typically law abiding. But I still don't think that is wise idea to tell them something like that about someone, that they are gay. Anymore than it is in Detroit, that is statistically very violent. And we have had a couple of homophobic attacks in the news recently too. But anyways I was in a hurry to go to the movie and I was trying get away from her, and get the copies I paid for. And I told her, whatever she thought I copied, this a library. Things here are protected by the First Amendment. And she paused and said, well maybe I should just go to another library then. But finally I got my copies and left. (And not that it matters now. But she basically ruined the movie for me too.) Also, I should point out that although the pictures were harmless, I was sitting discreetly in the corner as I viewed and printed them. That also has be confused. Because someone must have been reading over my shoulder at some point to see it.

As I said, I thought maybe she misunderstood or thought I did something I didn't. But my family supported me right away saying she was clearly in the wrong. Even my father who tended to be very politically conservative took my side, right away in fact in the library. And I finally figured out, she didn't think I did something I didn't do. She knew the pictures were harmless. She was just pursuing her own personal moral agenda. And at the request of another library patron, whose child was frightened of gay people.

Also one time at the Henry Ford Community College library I was copying pictures, again around the early 2000s. They were harmless again, just sports stars from their magazines there. And I was off in the distance getting something as I left my copies on a coffee table there. And I saw this female student wearing a hijab carefully leafing thru my copies to see what I copied. People don't seem to think I have any right to privacy. I think that is definite pattern. And people seem to be all right with that attitude. In fact no one seems to think that I have the same rights as other people. They don't even have the decency now to admit the lie they've told me for years now that is has been uncovered. They treat me a child, lie to me about important matters. And when I explain that I need help now with the legal matter now that I am permanently damage they just keep telling me that my case doesn't even exist.

I have a lot of problems in Dearborn. And I think you'll agree there is a pattern. Usually people trying to teach me sick, misguided moral lessons. Or people who clearly have their information about me all wrong or are jumping to the wrong conclusion. Teaching me sick moral lessons like collecting sports cards at Fairlane Mall is morally wrong. Or taking walks in parks are wrong or suspicious to them for some reason. Or just other general harassment and ridiculous things I still haven't figured out and perhaps never will. Destroying my peace of mind and probably leading to things like my April 2004 suicide attempt.

But since I did nothing wrong, I am a good person and I have nothing to hide, I plan on spending the rest of my life exposing it. My therapist tells me that I could get people into a lot of trouble that way, not going into detail. But besides protecting other people I also have to deal with the fact I am permanently damaged and an old man now, left all alone for the first time. And in need of money and way to deal with the way they left me.