Where Things Stand Now.

As I said, there was horrible mental abuse in my life. I guess it was caused by the mental health authority in Michigan. And it led to those two times I was threatened with horrible things leading to years of suicidal ideation. 1989 at Oakwood Hospital, Dearborn leading to suicidal ideation from 1989 to 1996. And Sinai-Grace Hospital in April, 2004 leading to suicidal ideation from 2004 to 2011. Those could have both ended tragically. Sometimes they almost did. And my position now is that I will not tolerate any abuse. And when it begins (and as I said, I think it has with Eric now—more on that below) I will right away fight it, expose it and demand it stop. I'm also concerned how the Detroit and Dearborn police and many others sought to destroy my peace of mind by taking away the simplest pleasures from me. I don't know what that was all about, but that couldn't have been good for my overall mental health. Simple pleasures that did no harm and that I thought no one would take with me, until they did systematically one by one. And did all those things put together lead to desperation? Because I don't have a degree in psychology, so I wouldn't know. I just know they were obviously designed to rob me of any peace of mind, or at least it seems that way to me. My point being that people involved in that should have known better. And we have a name for that. It's called the discredited Nuremberg defense. But I am going to keep bringing up the abuse I experienced till the day I die in those three eternal talking points. The fact I was driven to desperation and suicidal ideation not because I am suicidal or desperate, quite the opposite. The outrageous nonsense involving my car. It lasted for over 20 years, with the police harassing me while it was many of my neighbors who were a menace to the road. And like I said, it still might be going on. (In fact as I said if I went to a retirement home or group home someday it would have that effect, to take away my car. Because Detroit facilities like that neglect and abuse you, they don't let you leave or have contact with the outside world and they certainly don't let you have a car. That is why I vowed long ago to never even consider that as an option. If someone tries it now, just see how far they get with that with absolutely no cooperation from me.) And Cerebral Palsy. It couldn't have been more obvious that I had that all my life. That and a couple of other things. But why was I never diagnosed? I had good doctors and you'd think someone would have caught it along the way. And why am I denied that status now? What is that all about? I need that status now.

I was also going to say about the secrecy. It still remains, and it obviously is not due to anything I did to deserve it. Besides my therapist pretty much makes clear it is to hide the wrongful actions of others. The only problem is it harmed me, and now is harming me again with that dangerous level of Olanzapine again. Another thing too, when the police or other officials in government use secrecy, it is always to hide their misdeeds. I have come to realize that in my adult life. It's like on America's Most Wanted with John Walsh. He sometimes used to give information that almost told how the bad guys got away with the crime. But he was always quick to point out the bad guys already knew how to do that. Because they were way ahead of everyone else on that and many things. So free piece of advice, when the police or others like that say they can't tell you the reason why they are doing something, it's to hide what they are doing.

But like I said, I wanted to talk about this new abuse now. My legal guardian Eric wants to just abandon and leave me. Leave me with all my medical costs, leave me with all my handicapped and new needs. New needs caused by the damage he, Wayne County Probate Court, the police and others caused me by taking that horrible Olanzapine. Leave me high and dry to fend for myself when he knows there's not anywhere near enough money in the trust to live on. I'll become homeless probably in a couple of months. And all he ever had to do was just sign over a couple of check, which he could easily afford living in one of the Pointes. But now he doesn't even want to do that. And my case manager says the law supports him, that is how it works in Michigan. No it doesn't. This is a new horrible threat, it is new harm, both physical and mental. It's a horrible situation with seemingly no solution, no way out, no legal remedy, no one to support me and no one to care for me. It's designed to destroy my peace of mind, obviously. It has overtones of horrible injustices and unfairness that you'd think would be impossible. And now there is a new frightening level to all of this. I am permanently damaged. The nerves in my hands and feet are permanently damaged and that cannot be repaired. I'll be stuck with that for life, and it might be getting worse now. Especially with that new level of Olanzapine. Well anyways as I said, it couldn't be more obvious it is a new form of abuse. It doesn't even seem like it is in Eric's character to do things like this. He was quiet and introverted growing up and I did not associate him with any kind of cruelty. So why now? And why is trying to cut me loose at the worst possible time? And leave me to fend for myself with no money? Well, as I said my solution is simple. He will spend a month in jail to ensure his compliance and as a cautionary example to others. I have not backed down from that position. In fact it has been that since July 22nd. And my approach is and will always be the same. I am not going to tolerate or allow this new, or any form, of abuse in my life, now or ever again. I will fight, and I will expose it. I recognize it now as a new form of abuse and so that is what I will always call it, and refer to it anywhere I am. Always giving evidence for this in whatever way I can. With attention to quotes and dates and documents and obvious examples that everyone can see and no one can deny. And I will always chose not to play along or take part in it. And if I haven't made clear, those three eternal talking points will also always be the three things that I will always fight for. Because fate wants me to for some reason. Well, they did all really happen as I said. One, I obviously do have Cerebral Palsy, and other handicaps, and I demand that status and all the help that comes with that. Two, I was driven to desperation and thoughts of suicide by the extreme mental abuse I was subjected to. Just like the one now I explained. I will not accept it willingly anymore or ever again. I will fight and expose it always. And three, no one will ever take my car away from me. And includes going to a group home, a nursing home, an assisted living center. Really moving at all now. If Eric or anyone ever tells me now it's time to move, I'll right away smell a rat and block them at every turn doing that. Those three things are my eternal talking points and the three injustices I will spend the rest of my life fighting and exposing. Even long after they do or supposedly have ended.

Anyways, that is where things stand now.