Stoned Festivus For The Rest of Us

Plaquenil daily and methotrexate (by injection) weekly. And then a couple types of folic acid so that the methotrexate doesn't kill me.

 

plus 1 this morning...pretty pleased these warm temps came while my furnace is out.....3 more days of it too

 

-14 here. We got at least a foot of snow overnight.

 

later peeps, dont burn the place down..

 

It's gonna reach 61 in Philly today.

 

I was married back in the 70s....I had one of those trophy wives


last place











bob and tom show

 

Organizing my basement today. Full of stuff just stacked haphazardly since the move.

 

I work today. Double pay for the day

 

Good god almighty his voice is flawless

 

I had a very strange night last night. New Year's eve is the ONE SINGLE holiday of the year I like to think of as a Big Thing. I told dummyhead (my probably ex man friend) 1st in a text "its too bad that it IS New Year's eve and there haven't been any thoughts of us and plans." (This was way early in the aft - early enough for his dumbass to get the HINT that I wanted there to be plans.) He texts me back "Hard to believe its New Year's eve."

Is/was he being intentionally obtuse???

Then later he calls at what he considers (or considered - past tense) his "regular time" at 7ish PM - I'm really not happy. This stupid ass is 13 yrs younger and can't even stay up on a weekend night, much less New Year's eve which is during a WEEK. My GOD! ...I mean we don't have children. I have my health, and he has his. At any rate, no I was not my nicest...during this (short-lived) call - he manages to act like it matters NOT A WHIT that I am into New Year's eve...and I ask him has New Year's EVER meant much of anything to him? Did it mean anything last year??? Because (in case his stupid ass had missed it) I thought New Year's was a Big Holiday...and he tells me/ asks me "do you know you are being quite a bitch, and I'm tired of it." I ask him "Have you ever considered WHY I'm being a bitch?"

His brilliant answer: " I haven't done anything, I don't have to put up with it."

Me: No, no you don't...goodbye. Click

Now I don't know if he was talking about he was tired of my bitch self for good, or just last night so he wouldn't have to address why he can't once a year stay up like a grown-up until midnight.. Yes, he can't/won't change his 9 to 10pm bedtime AT ALL, unless (of course) his grown son wants him to drive to Timbucktoo for some stupid, totally ignorant reason.

Whatever...the dynamics of our relationship have changed. For good. He may call today, he may not....I find I don't give a shit. He is a lot lot lot of work.

I guess the bitch is supposed to always just plod along, going along with whatever to make the non-bitch feel comfortable. Then the non-bitch gets to do as they want, hearing no flack, no nothing....the bitch just needing to go along with whatever.

I'm think that ^^^ definitely isn't going to work.

So yeah - I got firecracker high, combined with wine - as I talked to my bff on the phone.

and that is how my New Year's went.

 

I will ALWAYS love love love Chris Cornell. He is the ONLY star musician that it honestly and truly hurt my heart and gave me a tear when he killed himself. I just HATE he had those demons to fight, and couldn't fight them off.

Yes...his voice is absolutely flawless.

 

What's love
Got to do
Got to do with it?

 

I can't say I disagree with you. Back in the day (when I was your age) I was willing to and DID put up with a lot more than I would now...but there were 2 loves of my life that, in looking back, I put up with ungodly amounts of bs because I really did love them.

Now...these many years later...I'm fairly certain I can't love, or something. I will not EVER put up with what I did in my youth. So, I don't know exactly what that means except that maybe I don't/can't really love again, not as I once did.

My son, I love regardless, no matter what. My best friend, I care greatly for, but in all honesty I can't say I love her because she gets on my nerves severely from time to time and in the spirit of complete honesty, according to how much I don't want to hear what I should do, shouldn't do, and hearing the same stories 1000 more times, I might avoid her if I can. I may be awful...but I'd never want her to know that because I wouldn't want to hurt her. Does that make sense?

I do not feel loved by my mother whatsoever. She loves me when it is convenient and/or she is getting her way and I'm doing what she wants me to do.

I feel loved by my son and (sort of) by my brother and brother-in-law. There are any number of people that I feel want me to feel loved - as long as I'm doing, saying, etc what they want.

I feel loved by some of y'all more than people I know in r/l.

 

"What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble.
That's what you get for all your trouble.
I'll never fall in love again."

 

Ohioman..
WATCH: Man Owns Undercover Cop Trying to Bust Him for Weed, Sells Him Flowers Instead of Pot

 

Just another day in Ohio...

 

I feel particularly intense...for lack of a better word.

The longer I go without receiving a call, the more likely it is to not go well.

This is not rocket science.

 

Ray Sawyer of Dr. Hook & The Medicine Show, famous for his eye patch and cowboy hat, dies at 81 | Daily Mail Online

 

I see the fucking **** is off to the new year with the same old shit starter..

when are you going back to work/> hum seems to me someone wants money..

meanwhile telling **** of issue . losing feeling in fingers, chest pain, high blood pressure, (trouble walking, pulsing sound in ear...

wont even get into heaven dreaming ..

when will I be better to go back to work?

hum I dont fucking know . Im not a doctor.