Share Your Random Feelings Part The Two.

Ah man, they drew the stink lines and everything.

 

Anxiety & sadness

One year ago today at 9am I found Misty having a seizure in our bed.

Then at 1pm the brain MRI found a tumor in her head.

 

This makes all our lil problems seem irrelevant.
How are you spending the day, Pete?
With good people around, I hope?
Don't succumb to sadness, and maybe don't be alone.

 

Unfortunately, I wont have any face to face human interaction, except for boxing at 630pm

But fortunately, I'll have my 4 golden girls and hf friends during the day.

Play lots music
Work on my triple time swing dance steps
(pushing my feet into the floor and moving my hips side to side more)

Try to take a 2 hour afternoon nap

Work on my lollipop prop for my dance routine.

Clean up
Laundry

If I feel sadness coming I'll play with my pups..

Thank you Eloise.....(((hugz)))

 

Good. You?

 

Thinking of you, Pete. <3.

 

I got a promotion. So pretty damn awesome, atm.

 

Congrats, D

 

Thank you, irmi!!

 

A weekend promotion would feel good, are you a shift worker though who works weekends or did you find out on Friday and been keeping it a secret? and have you already blown your first new pay cheque?

 

I found out yesterday lol!! I'm really surprised in a good way, but they are really getting their act together at my new job. I guess it just took a little time and patience. Good thing I didn't quit last year when I felt on the fence about it.

 

houses without rectangles, no bigger then they need to be, little trains no bigger then they need to be, and forested mountains that go on for ever in all directions,
that's my thought/dream, and me there without having to eat or sleep would be heaven.

crazy people can keep their gold streets and mansions. if they think they get gratification from trying to impress each other, they can keep all that and each other's company too.
nothing against gods or whatever else sees fit to exist. but how to people, or even gods for that matter, expect happiness from people being all angry and bitter at each other?

i don't even need to think about that. other then not wanting invisible people to be unhappy any more then anyone else.
just dreaming shapes and textures and how to make them. and you know, nothing having to be 'owned' to exist or be enjoyed.

if there's one thing that angers and annoys me, its being robbed of my head being in that space.
so without ignoring potential dangers and how to avoid them, i really don't need all the non-gratifying nonsense most people seem to think,
or have simply been conditioned/brainwashed, to want.

just some way to not have to worry about landlords and grocers,
and be able to create and explore.

and congratulations to people being able to make stuff for each other too.

 

Sleepy, hungry, in need of ibuprofen

 

x2

 

Confuzzled....

 

Great!

 

Darmok on the ocean

 

with arms wide

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I have no wish to put anyone off, and wish I was better at not doing so.

But 9/10ths of human company I am just as well off without,
and don't miss a damd bit.

Hugs are nice, and I will thank for ever anyone who is generous to me with them.

Good things and bad things don't make up for each other,
they both just are.

I can forgive anything that stops, but only after it does.

 

Excited : )
We're setting out on one of our road trips tomorrow.