I tried killing myself last weekend..........

i'm so sorry you had to go through this. i tried to kill myself last january. i didn't want to die either. i had fought with my best friend and i was fighting with my parents over him and his parents too. i love all those people so much and i didn't want all the pain anymore so i took vicadin, and put the phone next to me so i could call my mom to get my stomach pumped. i only took one at first because i thought maybe it'd just feel good and i wouldn't have to die. then i took three more because i didn't feel anything. and then i got really sick feeling and was dry barfing and i couldn't call my mom so i called my best friend. he didn't answer so i spent the rest of the day in bed trying not to fall asleep because i was scared. and the next day i broke down in the halls and told my best friend. we stopped fighting and he helped me get better. he wants me to see a doctor but i can't tell my parents. i looked up what happened in medical books and my case is actually quite normal. most suicide attempts are done with something that makes you fall asleep and most aren't intending to die unless they actually go through with it. it said doctors are necessary, probably true because i still have impulses. be careful for the next year because it is when you are most likely to try again. if you can get through it you can get through anything.

for all the asses who are saying its a petty reason.. its not. sure, its not worth dying for but so is war. when i person has depression (i'm figuring this is what is wrong) minor things can seem a lot worse. its like when you're 13 and get your heart broken for the first time. it feels like the worst thing ever at the time. so fuck you all. try to be understanding for once in your life.

 

There is only one ass....and that's me

 

and your proud of this? don't you realize she needs support and care right now?

 

I am aware...but, I still stick to MY opinion

Telling the *world* you tried killing yourself is a way to get attention.

 

OKay we've heard your opinion already, but its not helping so just keep it to yourself and stop posting here.

 

but by saying this shit, you could make it worse. that's the fucking problem.

and if you look it up, attempting suicide without intention of dying is a cry for attention from someone. probably her parents.

 

Yeah, Kurt Cobain was amazing.....I know, what I did doesn't help anything, and it did not, NOT make the pain go away..almost made it worse.

I wish I had friends taht understood....either they say get over it and your blowing it out of proportion (the majority) or the others are like, I know the feeling...life totally sucks, and they are in therapy and stuff too....so, really, neither really helps. Thank God I have you guys to help me through, my happy flower children!

 

Yeah I really don't know what the right answer for you is because my friends say the same things: "your overreacting" "your blowing things out of proportion" "Thats no reason to be depressed" after I was I just kept everything in and that just make things worse I started cutting my wrists, my girlfriend broke up with me, etc. So I don't know what you should do probably go to a doctor is the best thing but I don't expect you to do somthing that I wouldn't do. But alot of the people here make you feel wanted and some have pretty good advise.

 

Yes, thank you

MAIRYFAIRY...I didn't even see all those posts, eck I guess I missed them or something. THANK YOU for sharing your story with me...it really helped, knowing I'm not the only one going through this...I don't think I will try it again..I hope not...also, thank you for sticking up for me...yes, right now I do need care and understanding, not mockery and judgement.

 

Nah.......

 

Whatever. I know exactly what you are doing you twit. THIS is your way of getting attention. Cute....very cute. Quit wasting MY time and others by posting such juvenile nonsense. Grow the fuck up.

 

It seems to be working nicely...stop putting fuel into the fire.

 

listen moonflower now your just tryin to piss everybody off. this thread isnt about you, and if you start your own we'll be happy to help you sort out any of your problems. But right now we're trying to be supportive of a girl who had the courage to post her story, when she knew she faced a risk of getting negative comments and judgements. It was even more brave considering how personal the issue of a suicide attempt is. so please, we'll all be happy to take your mockery in good humor at a more appropriate time.

 

babe just learn to appreciate life. i've gone through my fair share of family problems with my half-sisters and my parents. it hurts even more when you're stuck in the middle with no voice in the matter, as was my case. i considered suicide, never went through with it, but I did cut and burn myself. just as a way to express my pain and get attention. it hurts looking back on that time in my life and how it affected me. till this day i have serious trusting issues which affect my relationships. it seems like your parents care about you, even if they fail to express it. all i can say is be straight forward with the shrink and think about taking some time to be by yourself to sort out your emotions.

love,
al the pal

 

Thanks......(to the people that are helping me)

Moonflower and that other person...come on, if you only have mean stuff to say, GET OFF it is NOT helping me!!! It only makes me feel worse, thanks......

 

Athea....asshole. Complete asshole.

 

you're welcome. anytime you need more help, i'm here.

 

Thank you

 

I'm not trying to piss everyone off. (Though, If I were, I'd be doing a pretty damn good job at it!) But, if I wanted to do that, I'd tell her just to kill herself. I'm saying it's an EXTREMELY petty reason. Like you just said, Ms. Thang....she posted this knowing she risked comments such as mine, but posted it anyway...so I'll post my comments anyway. And, thanks, but no thanks, I wouldn't come to the people here for help with any problem.

And surf...you posted this...I'm just giving comments.

 

wait am i the one referred to as Ms. Thang????? if so, awesome, i got a nickname