Just another new person hoping to be noticed

Hello, I am not clear as to how I stumbled upon this site, I have been reading the forum for a few days, and it has helped me alot, for the past year I have been contemplating crosscountry backpacking, I have been a bit stressed to make a safe understatement, the small town that I live in has troubled me my entire life, I have always felt like there was something out there, something simply unexpected, last night while sitting at a friends, and while I was at nearly my lowest and without much hope in living, I decided to walk to schwagstock, a festival that alot of my friends are going to, it is about 250 miles, and i only have about three weeks to prepare and then about four weeks to get there, while breaking and visiting places around the state on the way, it is far better than my fatal alternative, but just thinking about the freedom from the tedium of this everyday life, even if it leads to another repetitive cycle, makes me smile and want to carry on, another reason for leaving is the drug problem I have developed over the last year, I take too many introspective journeys through artificial eye-openers for my mental stability, and I realize this, but without leaving i am not sure if i could quit, I don't claim to be a hippy, I would be offended to be called a wannabe hippy, but I read something on here about wannabe hippies and those who want to be a hippy, I most likely fit into the latter, I have been to 2 schwagstocks, and an earthday/420 fest, I have met and talked to people who I would consider hippies, and i feel their way of life is closer to the way that would make me content, than being another blank face in a suit or uniform, at least for the moment, anyhow sorry for such a long drawn out introduction, I hope I am noticed, until next time...
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You're noticed

Welcome. Well I am not sure if I understood all of your text, since English isn't my natural language, but:

Hello!

 

Again,....you ARE noticed.

Sweetheart, you do seem so lost. I hope your will soon be found.

I think this walk that you plan to go on sounds like a utterly brilliant idea for you. This is the ideal situation for you to truely explore yourself. (And I do think you would really benefit from doing so...) Analysise your life so far and concider your future plans and indulge in some deep soul searching. Re-aline your soul.
I am so impressed that YOU are the one taking charge of your own life and holding your hands up and admitting "It's make or break now..." That right there is, honestly, half the battle fought already. Believe me, I've had to bring myself up from the bottom of my deepest, darkest hour in my life or die from it. So I know. This is how I can tell you WILL make it as a stronger, more 'together' person rather than broken spirited by life. I believe that. If you'll take advice from a slightly dippy, hippy like me; take what life throws your way NOT as obsticals but as lessons that make you STRONGER! YOU are in charge of your destiny. Even if our paths are already laid out for us, which I believe they are, WE still choose which paths to walk. So walk well my friend.

(P.s. You will never be a "blank face," after all, you are the "Cheshire Butterfly" and you can't miss a butterfly with all it's grace and colours)

 

So true.

 

I know but I do just feel she will be fine though.

Even though I have not met you and I do not claim to know you "Cheshire Butterfly" I have faith in you. What doesn't kill us can only make us stronger, and you already show evidance of having a strong spirit darling.

XXX

 

Hey Cheshire Butterfly; we're former MO folks & we've been to several Schwagstocks and to some shows, but not in a few years. The 'welcoming committee' here is great, but make sure you step inside, there's lots going on & many of us only pop in to welcome each newbie.
Welcome to the neighborhood!

 

Hullo out there, welcome to the hipforums, hope you do enjoy your time here..:sunglasse

 

thanks for the warm welcome everyone...