True Love or Fantasy?...advice appreciated

i fell in love with this girl at first sight. i experienced something very mystical like i was out of time in god's precense. we talked on the phone once..she pretty much is psychic or something because she seemed like she knew me pretty damn well for never having knowing me in this life. we even talked about God and our beliefs, which were the same. She comes from a family of hmong shamans but she decided not to choose that path. I talked to her once after that but we didn't get to talk because apparently she was in a rush to leave somewhere. I haven't called her since, that was probably at least half a year ago. Part of me believes this girl is meant for me but the other part of me is so full of fear and doubt that I am unable to try and talk or meet up with this girl. It sounds fucked up but I would almost feel like cheating if I had sex with someone else before I find out if there is a chance of me ever being with her. Recently I've had experiences where I almost feel that I am in her precense while I am all alone. It feels the same as being in the prescense of Goddess. Is this just because I have put her on such a high pedistal in my mind?

 

yes but that doesn't mean there isn't something to it

 

If it's been half a year since you two talked, I wouldn't opt out of other relationships just to wait for her. She obviously hasn't tried too hard to track you down, and you haven't been successful in reaching her again either.

 

i would just try to get in touch with her, and if nothing comes of it, let it go. i've had this same thing happen to me before...hits and misses. luckily, dario (my fiance') happened to be a hit...as in, we hit it off immediately and have been happily together since we met...so it can happen! you just have to see...

 

i called her like three days ago and left a message...she called me back tonight!!!
i was caught off guard and didn't have much to say cuz i was so nervous..she must not have minded though because she asked me if i want to get together on monday

 

Okay, you touched my heart with this one. DO NOT listen to anyone if they are telling you to get over it or move on or whatever.
I too experienced that magical love with someone. Well, we actually dated for four years but from the first minute that we saw one another it was as if no one else existed in the world. Nothing could touch us.
I lost her due to my own stupidity. So I can tell you that magic does exist. True love exists. There is sometimes no rhyme or reason to it. Sometimes it just is. Fate is a real thing and if you two were meant to be, which it sounds like you were, leave it in fate's hands.
Good luck on Monday.

 

magic is very real,
my +ve -ve post has some in it

 

Perhaps you do have that magical love of a lifetime! I would remain faithful in the thought she will either come for you, or you will both meet up in some store, or in passing....