Let Me Tell You About my 4/20

Well, I went on what is called a kairos retreat from 4/19 to 4/22. I cannot put into words right now how grateful I am to have gone on this reatreat, but it has seriously repaired a lot of the things that are wrong in my life.

I did not smoke on my 4/20 but I think I reflected about some much deeper things in my life. At this point in my life I can honestly say I am the happiest I have ever been in my adolescent years. Tonight I spent the entire night telling my parents how much I love them and just asking them to tell me their story. I've realized how similar my life has been with my dads with a few minor differences.

There's so much I could talk about but I will just stay on the subject of this forum. Before I went on this retreat, the sunday before I smoked a little bit out my window while my parents were out of town. When my mom got back she told me that it smelled like smoke and asked me "Have you been smoking pot?". In a pissed off sort of way I said no I haven't. Both of us knew that I had been, but I wasn't ready to be honest with my mom about it.

So I went on the retreat and some of the talks that were given talked about alcoholism and how that has ruined some people's lives. Very very touching and I'm going to have to be brief with the description, but everything clicked with me and I suddenly realized all the reason why I have smoked pot and why I will continue to. I realized that when I would come home I would sit down and have a talk with my parents about this and hope that they would be accepting. I realized all the reasons why I smoke and don't drink.

Right now it's about 1 am and I just got done having one of the most important talks with my parents in my entire life, not just about marijuana but about my relationships with them and how horrible I have been to them. Staying on topic however I addressed the reasons why I choose to smoke and not drink and they were accepting and for the first time I feel I can be totally honest with my parents about my life, my habits, whatever. My parents haven't said anything like ok you can smoke in the house or anything like that, but I feel that they truly understand my beliefs and are happy for me. I'm so grateful that I have such understanding parents who are so open. Of course my parents want me to be smart about how much I smoke and I feel like I need to pull back on it too. It's just exhilirating to be so honest with my parents, because I really do love them.

Sorry if this post was too long, but I've been through one of the biggest emotional experiences of my life. Thanks for listening. And Jointman if you're reading this I hold nothing against you anymore man, we all need to learn to forgive. Sorry for holding animosity towards yourself and I hope you can forgive me. Goodnight friends

 

what exactly is a kairos retreat ?

 

Thats awesome man...glad things are starting to come together

 

i really appreciate that man, we all have our beefs in life and im glad ours is over. It sounds like you had quite the expirience over the week. Honesty is the best policy as they say. I used to have a shitty relationship with my parents too but that all changed once i grew up some and started to be honest. Good Luck with your new found honesty and relationship with your parents.

 

Amen!

 

Right on man. That seems very righteoues. Good Luck!

 

There's a lot of mystery behind it. I don't want to explain to anyone who hasn't gone exactly what happens, but it was sponsored by my school which is a Jesuit Prep school. One thing you should know is that I'm an atheist, but the retreat really just put so many facets of my life together and helped me realize what i've never even thought about.

 

Excellent, man. I know the feeling, being honest is so great, and easy too if you give it a chance. When I told my parents I smoke it was like a big weight off my back, no more sneaking around. After all, I love my parents and it sucks lieing to them, it's much better this way. Anyways, I'm glad this retreat was so good for you. These turning points in life are amazing, aren't they?

 

I wish I could do that. To bad I have already gotten caught so trying to sit down and have a rational conversation about the love of my life lol would be kinda hard. Good to hear though that it went well.

 

hah, I think you go to my school...

 

sounds like you had a great experience man, and did lots of growing and maturing.. i totally agree, we need to learn to forgive and love each other and live in the now, keep it up
peace

 

im really glad u have found peace in ur life. ur one of the few.

 

me?

 

no, thejolta.