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I'm doing really good (job, house, ect) but I feel like I'm dying . When I was homeless I felt alive.

 

some how in some weird way i can relate to that. im doing well in some ways now... i have two cats, a sweet husband that loves me despite my baggage, doing GREAT in college, a nice, comfortable place to live, etc., etc.

but i dont feel....

i mean, sometimes i even think about cutting myself

when i was home less...

despite it all i could feel. i was alive.

 

When you're poor and times are tough you have important things to worry about- like eating.

Now, it's all to easy and you don't appreciate it.

 

yea, i think that's the right answer. thanks.

 

i used to live in a family with 3 houses 2 30k+ dollar dodge pickups a transam etc etc etc. now i live in some apartments with my mom and we have a 1993 cutlass ciera and im more happy here. like said above i think it is because u notice the little things in life.

 

I can somewhat relate to that -- when I was really struggling to keep things together, I had goals and things to work for, and now that I have pretty much reached those goals, sometimes it seems like I just get through the day to get through the next. I need a challenge again.

Thinking about some political volunteer work again, maybe.

I might be reading the other posts wrong, or am I on the same lines here?

 

congrats this post gets the award for gayest title :O

 

Amen to that, brother Juggler.

 

usa is one huge prison ...to pay for your cell realy sucks.,but homeless isnt free...nobody will be free till all the pigs are dead!

 

"Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose..."

 

we think of it like we own things, but really the things we are attached to own us.

I like my car, but to have the car I have to earn a certain level of income which requires a certain amount of time and energy committment on my part. my car owns me in a way. without it, I could take a lower paying easier, maybe even part time job and have time for other things that mean a lot to me. I could practice kung fu more!

whether this or that something owns us as long as we are attached to it. I've never been homeless, but I've been close and I imagine it has a certain freedom, but limits you in other ways.

face it the body own your attention. yet, paradoxically, just as the way into this is through the body, the way back out is in the body. it is all one.

the way to freedom is to have things, but not need them. if you have things and are unhappy then maybe you should give them away.

 

couldn't possibly have anything to do with how unnatural most of the assumptions so widely taken for granted actualy are? gnaw couldn't possibly! couldn't possibly be the influence of vested interests in priorities that destroy everything that is worth a dam. gnaw just absoltely couldn't possibly. couldn't possibly be that putting gratuitous accumulation ahead of its real consiquences is just as harmful as any other form of fanatacism. couldn't possibly. why everyone knows endless accumulation for its own sake and the pseudo sophistries of excitement addiction are perfectly the way of nature. aren't they? they are? ever study how nature ACTUALY works, not the romantacised vested pretentious assumptions of one fanatacism or another, be it of belief, idiology or so called economics?
ever ask yourself what REALLY gratifies the real YOU. not what someone or something has led you to expect to be gratified by? adolescence isn't the only 'crisis' in life. shakespear attemted to deliniate seven of them. i think he did a piss pore job of it. another oversimplified pasted on generalization. but the point that there are more then one of them doesn't miss the mark. only the pretense that they come at perordaned and scheduled intervals. or in some fixed number of them.

austentation can take many less then obvious forms. aggressiveness and machismo can be one of them. and impressing others gratifys nothing or at most no more then momentarily. unless it is with and actual generous creative personal accomplisment rather then the pretense of a mere accumulation.

 

Themnax...couldn't agree more,

The greed that has grabbed society by the cahunas grows and grows.
How can anyone possibly be fufilled if their goal is to impress others??
What you must accumilate to achieve this is fleeting moment by moment, it always must be bigger, better, more expensive than it was 5 minutes ago, so its a merry-go-round, and everytime you have to reach a little further to grab that brass ring until you fall off and have nothing...because you didn't fufill your souls needs.

I was a bit wealthy at one point in my life and I was most miserable...it came at a huge personal cost that I eventually REALIZED wasn't worth it...
Now I live as simply as I can and am MUCH more fufilled in my life, inside and out.

Some people have a hard time with good fortune, and good feelings inside because of feeling they "don't deserve" it. This usually comes from little voices in their past that they choose to let rule their future.
Thus sabatoging themselves when things start to "go their way".
Things, people and signs are sent to us at the right times in our lives but we make the choice to accept them or not.
Sometimes the wise choice is to embrace what is sent other times the wise choice is to turn away, thus our free will.
If something makes you uncomfortable look deeper into it.
Ask for an answer...then listen.

teepi