I started cutting again...

...that's all.

 

I'm sorry to hear that... what made you cut again? are you feeling so bad??

 

yes.

 

I hear ya!

no cuts now for about a month and a half

 

hey congrats, try and keep it up unlike myself haha.

 

hey guys, there are other ways to deal with your pain...cutting will leave scars all over, it might be hard to get over whatever it is you're going through with htis permanent reminder of your pain...talk to someone, let your feelings out, it helps.

 

Awe, I'm sorry to hear that you've started cutting again. Personally I almost did once when I was deeply depressed a couple of years ago but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't really think I'm helping much here am I? Just know that people are always here to listen if you need to talk.

 

i am really sorry to hear that. i used to cut and burn a lot, but ive been SI-free for more than 19 months now... its hard and i miss it, but live is less stressfull now... can i do anything to help you? i know you dont know me, but i want to help... unfortunately i dont have internet during the week, only in the weekends... but try to not cut! it sucks to have scars all over your body!!!!

i wish you verry much strenght, understanding and love

 

hmm... well i haven't cut myself in a couple years, I find a good outlet is writing, have you given that a try? I think cutting is just a physical outlet for emotional pain/frustration ya know? and while it might not be quite so satisfying, writing has definitely helped me. I have been fighting the temptation to cut myself lately though~it's so hard when you're lonely & depressed... blah....
It's weird I used to have scars going up my arm from cutting myself and they kinda just disappeared after a couple years....that's probably a good thing. I got turned into my guidance counselor when I was in high school and a social worker had to come to my house... I played it off that I was just doing it for a form of body decoration... cuz they were all even lines going diagonally up my arm... kept myself out of the meddler's way. Well I hope you can overcome this, remember nothing is quite so bad and you always have folks to talk with on here

 

i hope you figure out that cutting does nothing for you besides fuck you up even more..I ahev no sypmathy for cutters..sorry

 

While it is true that physical harm to oneself isn't helping, I dont' think you understand exactly why they do it. Have you ever felt so misunderstood, alone, depressed, etc... that you just wanted to die so it would all go away? Mental and emotional pain can be far more agonizing then that of physical pain, cutting oneself takes your mind off of the emotional pain for a while. Though it might not make sense to you, everyone has their way of dealing, we musn't criticise and ridicule others for what they do.

 

thanks to the people that offered to talk to me but i really don't believe people care anymore, all the people in my life that were supposed to love me did nothing but betray me. I used to write, draw, and play my guitar a lot but now i just can't bring myself to do any of that...it's like when im out of drugs or booze cutting is the only thing that makes me happy, i don't really care about the scars...they become a part of me.

and becknudefck...thanks for your input and taking the time out to read this, it doesn't really matter to me that you don't care seeing as you couldn't understand any of the shit i've been going through for my entire life. it hasn't fucked me up anymore than i already am. by the way..i like beck too.

 

Water Dreamer, I totally sympathize with ya. I was a cutter for years. As others said it seemed to take away some of the emotional pain. For the last few months I've been on a med that's REALLY helped with my bipolar disorder and I haven't felt the urge to cut (or to attempt suicide). My heart goes out to you, water dreamer -- don't give up hope though. You CAN stop -- I'm living proof. I know ya don't know me but feel free to PM me anytime.

*~* PeAcE *~*

 

Water Dreamer,


All your postings are a cry for help..
cutting yourself???is self mutilation..don't do this..
If you want help...then we are here..but don't block yourself out..
I don't have the right to tell you what to do or not to do..
but if nobody tells you anything...you will always stay in this vicious
circle you are living in now...a bit more self esteem would do wonders
for you..you are acting as if the whole world is against you...
Well..you are WRONG about that..
that's all I want to say..I know your reply already..
You will get mad at this posting??and why??
because you are MAD at yourself...
Just give me the full shit..I can take it..
That's all I want to say,Water Dreamer...
The only way to have a friend is to BE one..

 

A nasty habbit aint it?

I used to draw red lines on my arm with a marker when I felt the need to cut. But it doesn't really work. I haven't cut for about 2-3 weeks. I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow and I gonna tell her everything, except that I cut. (dont want to got to a mental hospital.)

I'm so excited for change.

 

if u have no sympathy for cutters, then y do u bother reading this thread. if ur only going to put people down, i see no point in u posting.

i'm sorry that u started cutting again, Water Dreamer. I used to do it a lot and i know it's hard to stop. fuck, sometimes i really wanna do it, but, like amber said, writing helps to get over the urge to cut. it's a great outlet for any thoughts u have. i hope the best for u.
peace & love

 

The ones who were to have loved you may have abandoned you, but more importantly, you have abandoned yourself. Hmm. Rent the movie called What the Bleep Do We Know?

 

the only thing lisa needs is her knight in shining tight pants.

 

I was not a cutter, i was a brander. It isn't the way to cope. I am scared for life and it makes me sick to have to look at myself and remember those low point forever. It makes it hard to ever stop thinking about those times. Find another way, talk to someone. I am not that far from chicago. And I am sure there are many others willing to help.

 

why? I really hope you stop that.