Have you ever felt soo confused, you didnt know which way to go, but yet you did.. like subconciously you were confused but you still acted... this is totally confusing.. ermms........... I miss people.. being alone sucks...... I need sum luv
aww, i thought this was gonna be abut having fun random conversations...i wish sarah was online and not at work so we could have one...we have wicked awesome random conversations... like how aweosme the unicorn song by the irish dreamers is or ummm, errrm my strange animal book
I feel like I've been so depressed lately.. havent had a fun random conversations.. just "why do you have to act like this... what does this mean...." kinda conversations....... I just wanna laugh n not cry anymore...like I dont feel suicidal or anything dont take it that way... I dont know.. guess Im just looking for answers expecting them quicker than they'll actually come.. ya know..
I miss everyone, I miss school.... I miss laughing n arguing over stupid stuff... I think I've just come to realise that the people I thought were true friends only are true friends at a convenience.. like when my mom will let them smoke pot... or when we're partying n such.. or when we're going outta town and will take some people with us..... Im jsut sooo ready to be out of here...I try to be positive and all, but it just doesnt seem to work anymore, I know how everyone is and what has been said about me and its just like.. I trusted these people and look what they did....it makes ya feel lost and cold inside... like an empty void almost.. and the weather is so miserable I cant really go outside to cure my blues...... and my spirts of happiness only last 25-30 mins.. and then its right back to being blue
its my philosophy that many people feel blue when they are unable to escape from what bothers them, as if they are trapped and agitated by it. I feel the same way, i just cant wait to get out of this town and away from the people i know. The greatest thing to look forward to is the future.
yea, I keep thinking about the future.. and how much fun I will have.. Im reading quotes n such.... slowly VERY slowly starting to feel a lil better.... its so hard sometimes, especially when you feel like no one understands you and everyone has turned their back on you, and your screaming so loud, but nobody hears you.. at this point Im afraid my mom isnt hearing me
in a small ass, old fashioned town called Wellsboro in Pennsylvania... their all "pot is bad.. drugs are bad.. women should wear full body dresses every inch covered.. women are strictly house wives... children are posessed.. hippies are bad... black people are bad.... keep a gun by your front door" its insane and its driving me nuts
yea I go through phases... where I just get down and out for a few days/weeks/months,,, and then I'll be really chipper for awhile.... I just look at the world and there's sooo much pain and such.... and then it just kinda takes a toll on me and I become unhappy with my life and my surroundings and want to get away from anything stereotypical/material..
