my life is strange...need insight...will i have a life again?

i have no life...since 01/01/2000 when i had to quit working due to a severely painful neck condition (after working my entire life) now i'm stuck home,no car,no $$. my husband is verbally abusive,a huge slob,and does a very poor job of caring for me. my world is very small.
all of my life i have had precognitions,usually of others and usually bad but always accurate...but few and far between. i also have vivid dreams that usually come true. but lately these feelings and dreams have been almost constant,stronger than ever and are about me...and they are good! i dream of and have feelings of being happy,at peace and content. surrounded by good people who love me. an example of this is a recurring dream that i have every night,along with several other vivid dreams. i dream of a wonderful comfortable home in the country. i could draw this place. (i have always dreamed of homes,but other peoples homes. i have often dreamed of places i've never been,accurately)
i would love to talk with someone that has more experience with this type of situation so that i can explore and understand whats going on. (i don't feel as if this is wish fufillment but i suppose it's possible )
also,i would like to explore my feelings and dreams in general to learn how to use this gift.
IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO IS WILLING TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND? to help me figure out where my future lies??? any advice,comments,insight whatever is welcome.

thank you good people,and remember to laugh whenever you can for that is one of our greatest gifts!!!!!

 

Hey judysorionstar, based on your dream, it seems that you will soon have an increase in happiness. But I want you to do something, I want you to respect yourself to the fullest. I want you to realize that you are a caring, beautiful, divine being, and you do not deserve anything less than the best in life. You deserve to be treated with respect and should not be taken for granted.

Seriously, don't you forget that.

If you need any advice or anything, feel free to PM me.

Take Care ^_^

 

your situation sounds very lonely and emotionally draining! remember that you are a whole person with free will to do anything. take the liberty and courage to help yourself move with all of the potential that you have! i too have had premonitions ever since i can remember. although mine usually revolve around storms.

 

hello there....yu are considering making the move but are afraid of this man? theres nothing he can do if you levae without him knowing where you go. the world is very large. if f you have children...well i suggest take them with you. there is no way that this gy will be able to find you if you plan your move well enough.
he is intimidating you for no good reason. honistly it seems like you've become so used to this person treating you in such a way you think tis normal to fear them.

i think the reason you're seeing this house okay...is becuase you are planning to make it real...however you might not feel you have enough courage to do that thing..although to be honist the only thing you ae fearing is the big move...theres nothing holding you back and nothing stopping you ...
the husband or whatevr will hardly notice..be too lazy totry and find you...and i can slso see this very helpful and kind woman who you'll befirend in a place that is near a national park.


i'd like to put this to you....please realise that this dream is your mind forming a plan to make real....so make it real. do not stay where you are...anything will be better and anyway....you will make this move and if you do it sooner than ater that gives you mor years to enjoy it.

you will be amazed at how making this change...how many people will support you and help.. not dangerous at all i see safe skies all the way.....

however. very soon i expect you will do the mad thing, pack up and leave. he offer you nothing...you have realised that and i expect that you already are forming the plan in your mind of leaving. i suggest that you crystalisse this more and carry it through as quickly as possible...while it is still growing...it is going to happen...i sae the image too of your countryside house near a big lake....with some mountains...
i think you should get a train and find that house. money will not be a problem for you becuase you'll be going somewhere with the intention of starting a nw life for yourself and you'll be incredibly surprised by how generous people will be ...

 

thanks people,for the wise words and kindness!!!...as you probably have figured out,this situation is more complicated than the little i wrote here. what is true is i am not where i am supposed to be!! and my dreams have been practically screaming at me to change this...nice homes,long road trips,vacations,and lots of comfortable kind people around me. now i just gotta go there. oh,and not scared of this man,i feel sorry for him...how horrible to be so miserable inside your own skin.
anotherer part of this puzzle that is my life is my niece who is 4yrs younger than me. she lives in maryland,has 5 kids (ages 17-9) and everything that happens to her happens to me. our lives are almost a perfect parallel. there are differences in some circumstances,but the basic result is the same. same personal problems,same health problems etc..(we even got pregnant at the same time,the night my mom,her grandmom died...her daughter is one wk younger than my son). all of our lives we have been alike in personality,decisions,interests...everything. and now what i think is that J. (she was named after me by my brother)and i have reached this point in our lives at exactly the same time for a reason,and we can help each other get to where we can be happy,healthy and content!!! she is much much more beaten down than i am and she is very very weak...i hate to think her spirit is broken...i know my spirit is damaged and tired but never ever broken!!!
your responses and insights have been a great help! and the water and the mountains and even the train are right on track to where i have been feeling pulled to! and yes $$$ is the biggest problem,as usual. but i will get there and we will be happy!!!.....and premonitions or insights or ideas on how to get there soon would be appreciated a lot! she is in maryland and i am in florida

 

worldly ups and downs should be treated as lightly as clouds, gathering and breaking up.