I'm posting this to just get my feelings out, I just hope I'm not flamed more for doing this. All I want is to get the word out that we need change, but I have been attacked, insulted, and abused by numerous people from these forums. It has been affecting me in my everyday life, as I am a very sensative person being connected to the emotions and attitudes of others. I do the best I can to stay calm & collected but it's hard not to break down in tears. :'( I have been called out as a hypocrite and a liar and even someone who's trying to start a CULT. It's almost enough to make me want to give up, especially with no support. I only have so much energy to give out & spend on such things, but I've been using my energy just defending myself as of late. I'm not sure what it means, but if you care, please let me know. I really need the encouragement to remind me why I'm here. I don't want to argue, I only want peace. I don't know what to do to 'prove' this to people, but I don't feel that I should have to prove anything. I feel like I'm running uphill with people chasing me trying to hurt me & tear me down. I'm not a bad person, by any means, I'm caring, loving, peaceful, compassionate, and sensative. It breaks my spirit to see the kind of assaults on me that have been going on. Even after ammends have been made, there are those who still wish to stir up conflict. I just don't have the energy for this, and I'm losing my motivation. If anyone cares, please let me know. I'm ready to say 'forget it' and do this on my own, without anyone else trying to tear me down. I don't need that at all. Anyone in my position would feel the same, at least I would imagine they would. I'm not really sure why I'm saying this, I just feel that I need to get my feelings out so others know how I feel. Maybe something good will come of this thread, maybe I'll find out that others still do care about how I feel and will help defend me. One cannot fight against the world alone, or even a small group of people. I actually have tears running down my face as I type this. Like I said, I'm ready to give up, it's sad to say but I actually feel like, if no one else cares, why should I try? Let me know if you care, let me know if I should continue on, I'm not doing this for myself, if I were, I wouldn't care to even come to these forums. It's very frustrating to keep trying but not get anything back, it's very draining and I can't continue on like this. All I ask, and I imagine everyone feels the same deep down, is to be treated with fairness, respect and dignity. If someone wishes to put me down or say something cruel, please just don't. And this isn't meant to start any fights, I'm just putting my feelings into text so others can know what's going on if I haven't PM'd you back or have taken longer than usual to email/PM. I need to know that you care because I'm running low on positive energy and I can't continue to 'waste' any more on something if no one else wants me to. I will quit if I'm told to quit, this isn't for me, it's for all of you.
Stop being such an over-sensitive puss it's just a goddamn webforum. I'm sorry if this seems harsh or mean or something but it's the truth. These are just webforums, you have to stop being so damn over dramatic and learn how to deal with the fact that people are assholes.
hey dude.. if it's real what he's feeling than you could show him the slightest bit of respect. Especially RT can be a hard place if you don't get what's going on.. he's looking for answers in the wrong places I think.. just point him the way instead of bashing him again.
I'm not trying to show him disrespect but he really needs a reality check. If he burns a little more before rising out of the ashes, so be it, as long as he's a phoenix in the end.
damn kevin,, i said "hypocrytical statement" are ya off yer meds brother?? serious dood ya wanna be flamed,, ya just picked the forum to have it happen.. what was ya thinkin?
one time my girlfriend had sex in the bathroom and got really drunk while shes puking on you. I know this shit cant hold a flame. Youre so fucking lucky I dont mention namnes
