If you could try any drug?

I kinda fear drugs for some reason.. someone in my family is schizofrenic which makes me have a higher chance of having/getting it as well.. with her it was triggerd by drugs so.. even smoking weed makes me paranoid for that so I hardly ever do it, though it's legal here.

Anyway.. what I'd really like to try.. two things really.. and both are best put in songs I guess..

one is a drug that makes you hallucinate, loving etc etc.. just listen to the song "walking in space" from the musical Hair and you'll know what I mean.. I'd like to do that on a warm summers day in someones home.. just chilling out, fans blowing softly.. spacing out.. this would be my 'embracing life' drug.

Doors locked (doors locked)
Blinds pulled (blinds pulled)
Lights low (lights low)
Flames high (flames high)

My body (my body)
My body

My body (my body)
My body

My body
Is walking in space
My soul is in orbit
With God face to face

Floating, flipping
Flying, tripping

Tripping from Pottsville to Mainline
Tripping from Mainline to Moonville

(Tripping from "Pot"sville to Starlight
Tripping from Starlight to Moonville)

On a rocket to
The Fourth Dimension
Total self awareness
The intention

My mind is as clear as country air
I feel my flesh, all colors mesh

Red black
Blue brown
Yellow crimson
Green orange
Purple pink
Violet white
White white
White white
White white

All the clouds are cumuloft
Walking in space
Oh my God your skin is soft
I love your face

How dare they try to end this beauty?
How dare they try to end this beauty?

To keep us under foot
They bury us in soot
Pretending it's a chore
To ship us off to war

In this dive
We rediscover sensation
In this dive
We rediscover sensation

Walking in space
We find the purpose of peace
The beauty of life
You can no longer hide

Our eyes are open
Our eyes are open
Our eyes are open
Our eyes are open
Wide wide wide!

The other drug is more darker.. I'm like that.. happy stuff, not-so-happy stuff.. all the same.. life.. death.. one doesn't go without the other. So naturaly the other drug I'd like to try would be heroin. I've been very fond of The Velvet Underground for a long long time and their song got me very interested, because sometimes I feel exactly like that song. Fuck embracing life, fuck thinking you have the answers.. I just don't know and I just don't care anymore. Anyways.. since the lyrics say it all.. here they are:

I don't know just where I'm going
But I'm gonna try for the kingdom, if I can
'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man
When I put a spike into my vein
And I'll tell ya, things aren't quite the same
When I'm rushing on my run
And I feel just like Jesus' son
And I guess that I just don't know
And I guess that I just don't know
I have made the big decision
I'm gonna try to nullify my life
'Cause when the blood begins to flow
When it shoots up the dropper's neck
When I'm closing in on death
And you can't help me now, you guys
And all you sweet girls with all your sweet talk
You can all go take a walk
And I guess that I just don't know
And I guess that I just don't know
I wish that I was born a thousand years ago
I wish that I'd sail the darkened seas
On a great big clipper ship
Going from this land here to that
In a sailor's suit and cap
Away from the big city
Where a man can not be free
Of all of the evils of this town
And of himself, and those around
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know
Heroin, be the death of me
Heroin, it's my wife and it's my life
Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head
And then I'm better off and dead
Because when the smack begins to flow
I really don't care anymore
About all the Jim-Jim's in this town
And all the politicians makin' crazy sounds
And everybody puttin' everybody else down
And all the dead bodies piled up in mounds
'Cause when the smack begins to flow
Then I really don't care anymore
Ah, when the heroin is in my blood
And that blood is in my head
Then thank God that I'm as good as dead
Then thank your God that I'm not aware
And thank God that I just don't care
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess I just don't know​

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hmm... i wouldnt "try" heroin if i were you velvet lol. some people just get real sick and shit the first time they do it, its a rather HARD drug...

and i dontr kow what else you mean (acid?) but with how many legal hallucinagens are around you i know of a few lightweight ones you could start out with, if your afraid of going crazy

 

Wouldn't do either of them.. well.. maybe if I had a good guide *hint hint*

Nah.. is just a nice theory thingie.. no need to actualy do it.

Hey.. got some news.. can you get online?

 

As I already said: Adrenochrome.

Would anyone of you sell me one of his kidneys?

 

Is there even any evidence that adrenochrome is anymore than an urban legend?

I'd like to take a vial of acid intravenously in the neck on my deathbed...go out with a bang.

 

For "Walking in space" I´d suggest a mixture of MBDB and some fresh semilanteacea, the European version of the psilocybe shroom.
For the second song, I´m not quite sure yet, but I guess it should be either 2C-T-2 or DMT.

But: all those are drugs, that are suitable for very experienced users only.

If you seriously want to cross some very special borders, we could get into business. I live not far away from you (in Germany) and I´m a physician, working in psychiatry and psychotherapy for more than 6 years now (so I know what you can do and how to minimize the risks).

 

yeah, that sounds awsome. id want it to drip like 200mic's every 10 seconds, so you dont immeadiately black out.


and velvet, heres your chance, the flow knows what he's talking about. you guys have fun ok? and be careful both of you

 

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how bout BZ!!!! TOTALLY!!! ALRiGHT!!! YAHOO!!!


yeah right

 

Pure MDMA, not molly with X & Y chemicals/binders in it, crystal MDMA
Pure MDA
Mescaline
2-CI
2-CB

And Ketamine, except I have done it once before however I cannot remember the experience so I would like to do it again.

Oh. In that order.

 

I'm too chicken for that I think.. besides.. if I'd ever really do drugs I'd like you to be my lifeline.. trust you more than anyone when it comes to this.. think I'd be perfectly comfortable with you. But hey.. distance *sigh*

 

Pure MDMA is Molly. It's just that whenever a slang word is used for the best of a certain drug, pretty soon dealers start calling everything that. Pills are NOT molly. Powder MDMA cut with something is NOT molly. Powder MDMA, not cut, is molly. This was covered on ask erowid a while ago.

 

I've never seen crystalline Molly, it's generally got those nasty conanimants leftover in that brown fishscale pattern...ugh.

 

thats sort of what Aldous Huxley did, except he took 100 ug

 

Yeah, but I mean something more along the lines of, mm, a mg or two.

 

it is real, though im not sure why anyone would really want to try it. adrenochrome is oxidized adrenaline. if i am not mistaken, the reason a schizo expiriences hallucinations is because their adrenal gland pumps out too much adrenaline, and it stays in the blood stream longer than it should and becomes oxidized.

 

any psychedelic i havent yet had the wonderful opportunity to try

 

id like to do extacy again. had it once the summer between 7th and 8th grade. took half a pill and im pretty sure it was a shitty cut or something because i didnt really feel anything other then being horny as a motherfucker.

 

Oh, yeah, I miss good old pure MDMA...

 

The reasons schizophrenics experience hallucinations are not as black-and-white as that. Also, I believe that there isn't any proof either that oxidized adrenaline actually causes hallucinations. And was it even hallucinations? I thought it was just a general state of psychosis.... All skepticism right now as far as I have read.

 

100% pure cocaine from a lab not the jungle. Also I would like to try heroin but i would never because I know I would love it way too much.