my suicide My suicide now all my thoughts leak out in puddles on the ground, another will but there's no way, i will salvage what i can from the puddle wich i now lay, sit up in bed all night thinking and trying to stay awake. i will be in their mind that day, everyone sees strait through me,so they say, well nobody sees enough to make me stay, they always think that they will speak to me again. all things in my life pass by like water left in the sun, i will be living in my longest dream, bullets fly from the gun and nothing on this earth can make me stay, nothing will hold me down from this day. i will be in your mind that day, you see right through me so you've said, well you dont see enough to make me want to stay, you have always thought you'd speak to me again. every wall you've built for me,the pain always breaks strait through, every word i've spoke to you had different meanings burried deep within, everytime you cannot breathe you'll think of me with no releif, everything you now realize will be too late to open up my eyes that day, it will be too late to open up my eyes that day... Jehri's poem she said to me 'wait 'till i am 14,my birthday will be remembered', asking and pleaing i begged her to tell me what she meant, her reply scared me but i was not suprised, she said she planned to take her own life. every day i beg and plea, i try to explain that i cant loose her,she is a best friend, i wish she would just try to understand. i cannot loose her, she can't leave, i pray that she will read this befor it is too late. does she remember the days we sat and stared, stared at passerbys while pointing out hot guys? does she remember that secrets i sharred? does she know how much she helped me? she can't take her life, if she goes, i will follow. i hope she might understand, i am always here listening and ready to try and help. i want her to understand, that life is like quicksand, everyone needs a friend to pull you out when you get caut up in it all. i am that friend and i promise i wont let you fall, i will hold the weight of it all, i will find the one wh cheated and show him the damage, i owe you, you did this all for me...
