I went to dinner with a friend of mine last night...and we got to talking. Mind you, my friend is 28 with a kid and wise beyond his years. He kept asking me, "Annie, what do you want out of life?" My immediate response was "To be happy" he glares at me and bluntly tells me that's a bullshit answer. "No Annie what do you want for yourself? What do you want to accomplish?" YOu know what? I didn't know. I didn't even pretend to know when we were talking! "I want to change people's opinions on the importance of our environment." "HOw are you going to do that?" I didn't have the slightest clue. Now I'm really starting to rethink the direction in which my life is going. I've always had this thing where I just sort of float through life, waiting for things to come to me, wandering aimlessly, and I used to be pretty happy with that. Now...I'm questioning my method of living. What AM I doing with my life? What difference am I making right now? I'm 22 and just taking up space in the world, not doing a damn thing to make it better. It's so bad, I actually couldn't sleep last night...and after falling asleep at around three, I'm back up at 630 in the morning. This is deep shit, for real.
Yes, which is why I was sort of just letting things happen...unfolding how it's supposed to. Letting the universe just sort of come together for me. But Stephen made a great point last night...the universe has to know what you want in order to provide it for you. If you don't even know what you want, how can the universe know? Maybe that's different than fate/destiny...I'm not sure. And at this point, I'm not so sure about anything!
I tend to believe that most of my major decisions in life (employment, marriage, children) have been a result of what was meant to be. I always get a "feeling" inside, it's kind of hard to describe, but something pushes me in certain directions.
Annie.. my responce is the same... I dont know what I want yet.. It is time to start thinking but its not something that you have to know just yet..
A part of me says, I'm young, life is short...I want to have fun and enjoy life. However, another part of me says, life is short I need to do as much as I can to leave an imprint on this earth before I leave it for something else...
Maybe you need to listen harder to destiny. Really become in tune with yourself, and listen. There are paths given to you, but you need be listening to know which one to take. You are making a difference right now, even if you feel that you are not. Because of your concern for your environment, you ARE helping, and, you can very well be convincing others to help as well. That right there is something, and can have an impact on many!
Because everytime I post something you come in and act a fool... Plus...I'm on 3 hours of sleep and I'm grouchy... Blah...sorry
I'm sorry, I thought you were someone else...LOL Sorry sorry sorry, double sorry I'm a little fiesty today I guess LOL
