Ok, so I've been a lacto-ovo vegitarian for half a year now, and have one a good lot of research on factory farms, and realize that egg producing farms are the worst in the industry, and many dairy farms are bad as well, but due to financial restraints my parents don't think they could afford for me to eat healthfully as a vegan, so I'm stuck being vegitarian. Well, anyways, as for the visions. For the past few weeks I've been randomly having visions of dairy and egg farms... the animals... all the cruel treatment... I have no control over these visions, they appear randomly and last for between 3 and 40 minutes. It eventually fades away, leaving me in tears, sweating, and with stomach aches and cramps. These visons have been becoming more frequent. I want to rid myself of these visons, yet the only way I can see would be to go vegan, and I really don't want to strain my familys finances (although I doubt a vegan diet would much affect my faimly's grocery bill). Still, I want some way fro these visons to go away! I nearly throw up now every time I eat any dairy or egg containing product. This is really fucking with my psyche. Any advice on what to do?
I think your problem is in your mind, you know how the animals are treated and you feel sympathy for them and by you not consuming certain products you are doing a small part in stopping the cruel treatment of animals. Your basically mind fucking yourself into a choice, the only choice that makes sense to you, to become a vegan. Maybe because your parents say you can't be one is a major contributor to your mind coming up with visions to force you onto the one path that you think you have to take. A couple of years ago I was eating a egg when it suddenly hit me what exactly an egg is and it grossed me out big time, and I still can't eat an egg. Try not to dwell on how the animals are treated, avoid the foods that make you feel sick. If that doesn't help you might need to talk to someone who is better qualified to help you. Hope this helps you.
