im so pissed off right now, pre-menstral, stressed whatever. i want to live in a place i dont have to clean and tidy every day, hoover, dust etc, its driving me crazy, i want maybe a boat, one long room, and no space for shit to accumulate you know? somewhere i can use outside as my space most of the time, or somewhere communal where i take my turn to clean the cooker, scrub the bath and polish the goddam sink (its all got to be kept nice as we are renting and will be for years and its a brand new flat and we need our deposit back when we leave) i dunno, ive just spent the last hour cleaning and i feel like shit, i might be pregnant and im so tierd and i ache all over and i just need to MOAN, thats all thats really wrong. my husband does some, but only if i bug him and bug him. i feel so trapped in this flat at the mo, havent been anywhere else but essex for too long, it grinds you down. got no money to go anywhere, debts up to our eyeballs and an 8 month old baby. sorry to rant at you guys, but i have to do it somewhere and i guess its better for you guys to here it than my husband who seems to have lost all patience when i moan. im not easy to live with right now i know but there are reasons for that. thanks for reading.xxx
