Yeah. I'm talking annoying, depressing, confusing, stressful and all that other jive. Basically... every relationship I have been in the guy leaves me because hes bored or found something better. Or every friendship I've been in with a guy or a girl. I can date whoever I want. I figured that out after a period of time playing this game. But you know what? It seems like a guy gets fascinated with me, feels so excited and amazed about me for the days we meet n greet. Then the first few days of a relationship. I always see a nice big smile on their faces... totally impressed with who they found. Then the checking out time with physical and mental conversations and connections takes place. Thats alot of fun but it seems like after that... theres this slump. Or this real bad karma I have. Guys will start to get real bored of me. They start getting these annoyed faces and trying to spend time away from me. Conversations starts going where I'm doing all the talking and the guy gives his input here and there and gets pretty slow on talking. Some get quiet when I'm around, others gossip, ect. With every relationship, the guy wraps it up. I've been dumped so many damn times its not even funny. Can't even count. I've been dumped every time. Most the same fashion... The guy tells me hes checking out other chicks, just wants to be friends, wants to hang out with his friends, others feel its not the funnest thing on the planet, or they ask to go on a break (3 times so far) and be away from me. I get complaints about how we never do anything. So I get dumped. I always feel like extra baggage. Like some sort of annoying mistake the guy put on his list. Even if they haven't dated much. I always feel these avoidance vibes from them. I can't even read worth shit anybody. Its utterly confusing because I don't know how to fix myself to make me last in a relationship. To be interesting. Then when I do get dumped I can't talk with whoever because they are totally sick of me. They don't want to be seen with me. Its fucking weird. A few months can pass by and then we'll start talking again and the interest can spark up again. But still... the cycle is possible. All these failures, even with long relationships makes me wonder if I should just be single. I can't keep a conversation with anyone. Sure, I'm great at first but a consistent relationship or friendship is impossible. People move and blow me off. Totally looking at me like I'm sort of pathetic attention seeker. Noone has enjoyed my company for more then a long period of time except the family. I don't know what to do.
do you honestly feel a strong connection in these friendships/relationships? Maybe they just aren't right for you? All you can do is be yourself and try to find people who have the same interests and mindset you do. Or I guess you could try to become interested in something someone else is, but that's probably harder. As for "not doing anything"...if it's the right one, you won't need to do anything - you'll have fun just being together. You're young and beautiful, you've got plenty of time to find THE ONE! ....you might want to look outside of Idaho though
Perhaps it would be helpful if you could find someone who could be honest with you about what you are doing that turns people off.Find a counselor or someone else who could be impartial and straightforward with you.Whatever they say,don't take it personally, instead try to use it to improve yourself.Good luck and remember you're worth it! ~peace & love
