For almost a year now I've been having everything from DayDreams to Corner-eye visions to full blown Nightmares of...Well, Me. It seems for some reason the base of all my Nightmares has been a Darkened version of me, The clothes and skin are similar but almost seem to be covered in ash, The hairstyle is different, Spiked instead of down and straight as I have it usually, The most disturbing is probably the eyes and mouth, The eyes are identical, but missing a pupil, just solid blue. As for my mouth, It's stiched up. In most of these scenes I seem to also be unable to speak, Even though my mouth isnt stitched as this "Clone" of me is. He takes a step but suddently seems to jerk violently toward where he was facing, If anything does make a noise like something in the room breaking or going off, He lunges at me and I wake in a cold sweat just before he actually touches me. I'm very disturbed by these reccuring dreams, Often wondered what they meant but most people i've been to see about it tell me i'm stressed out from my College work and life in general, But even in calmed times these come to me, So much so that I stay up a lot more, Not because I'm not tired, More just pure fear of seeing him again. Anyone have any thoughts on why I could be having these visions?
Maybe it's like a Yin-Yang. There's always some bad in with the good. and Vice Versa.. Also, Maybe it's just, You, in an alternate reality, The 'bad' you. I'unno, Just think about it, It blows your mind with possibilites. Peace.
Pencil Bite the only one who knows what it means is you ... so this is but a suggestion. Imagine that you have invited him from the astral planes yourself, to be a reflection of truth and impulse of change. To set him free just go and love him as fully as you can ... and love all the obstacles in between as much, no matter how big or small. The meaning of dreams often shows in what we do with them after they hooked unto us yet asked us but to change. So make it a reflection and impulse to change your life ... no less.
now the other two have given you great and very deep suggestions, that being said I believe it's my duty to give you a shallow one you know your weakness, at least you should, think of what you'd hate to have someone do to you in a fight, make sure you dream long enough to engage and kick your ass and if you can't get motivation take all the stupid things you've ever done that you regret and kinda hate yourself for (we all have them we just describe them differently) and take them out on him.... know your weaknesses and use them.....
Moving_Cloud and Quest_techie - Thanks for your insights, Im not sure thats possible however.. When I have these visions It seems almost that I have no control, Like an observer but I can still feel, hear and see normally, It's almost hard to tell when It's happening as I feel awake.. I've also been told under more intencse versions of the nightmares I'm known to wake up to a very messy room, In short, Some very violent sleep-walking.. SageDreamer - Can you elaborate please? I'm not quite sure what you mean, I'm not very weary of what others think of my appearance, But maybe you did'nt know that, Sorry if I did'nt fully understand. Thanks for your suggestions so far guys, I appreciate it
Pencil Bite, I'd be happy to elaborate. I think this version of yourself you meet in your dreams is you. He's not exactly like you, so he represents how you see yourself. It's not just a matter of physical appearance, but how you see your character and personality and everything else. His lips are stitched, so maybe it means that you feel like you are unable to communicate. Perhaps you fear that you are misunderstood, or there is something you want to tell someone that you are unable to say. If it were my dream--and it's not--I'd be more worried about him lunging toward me. Moving cloud's comment about setting him free and loving him really resonates for me. It's much more difficult to interpret a dream for someone I've never met, but I get a feeling from what Moving cloud says and this lunging that you might believe that parts of yourself are not as lovable as they ought to be. This is a very common situation. You say that people who do know you say that you are stressed from your college work and life in general. I wonder if perhaps you might possibly feel that you are not living up to some very high expectations or are very frustrated. The words "fighting myself" in your post make me think you might be frustrated or even angry with yourself. I would encourage you to read about lucid dreams. When I have really unpleasant dreams, sometimes I am able to control my dreams, learn from them, or both. If my dream double lunged at me like yours did, I'd probably give the guy a big old hug. You may have another idea that makes more sense *to you* about handling it.
Hmm, thankyou for that Sage, Theres a few things I can elaborate myself. But yes I have felt rather down about my Education.. I offen have semi-Lucid dreams whereby I know it is a dream, I'm just unable to turn that into a controlable vision, As for the lunging, As I say i'm completely paralised apart from shifting my body to watch him around the room, The Lunge seems, To me, To be very aggressive and finalising, That also could by why that part always wakes me and nothing else that he does.. Thankyou for your Input, Much appreciated
I think that if you’re seeing yourself in a different light maybe it means you haven't fully accepted all of you, dark and light. But that greatly depends on your own thoughts, so it's just a guess. But I've been reading about different doorways into a person and dreams are one that comes up a lot. There's an entire part on being disabled, blind, deaf and mute. One author, Alice Anne Parker has written about the image=mute and the association=speechlessness...along with what to ask yourself,"What am I afraid to say? Or what do I want to say?" But also what do you do or feel like right before you see or sense he's there. Or do you even feel a deeper connection to him? He could just embody your fears or that you want to change. I'm pretty new at this stuff and I just thought it might be helpful for you to know. Really just more to chew on, good luck and I hope you find your answers.
What have you learned about yourself in the past year? You've had plenty of time... What fight has been raging inside of you unresolved?
You may be blessed to see something about your self so clearly. Perhaps that hints at the possibility of making a change. Symbolically, the eyes and mouth may represent something communitative. But, the lunging seems more like a 'hair-trigger' movement: something booby-trapped, if you will. Something, as in a test, where the wrong response 'trigger' the reaction. I had such a daydream as a child. It happened everywhere, totally eclipsing reality. As I walked along, a section of the sidewalk opened up and swallowed me. It only ended when somehow I took deliberate action in my dream state by jumping up and throwing myself over the open section.
