He said she said,the rest of the story

Suzy fucking sunshine
That's me
Always happy
Always laughing
I need to be
To stop the fear
From engulfing my soul

I'm a big mirage
None of this is real
Well maybe it is but giganticized
I don't know anymore

I left home to find myself
Just got lost a little more
In the mystery of my own mind
Thought this would be differant
That all I needed was a change
It worked for awhile
And now I'm back to zero

You can't run from pain
Fated meetings of despair will find you
Drinking putrid cocktails
Can only restrain it for so long
Shaky voice calmly points
Towards some moot topic
The mating ritual of slugs
Or some other bullshit thing
I know nothing about
And care even less

Is there peace of mind in solitude
I certainly pray these things
Although I don't believe in god
Making me something of a hypocrite
I also don't believe in love
Perhaps for a few
But mostly it is a self induced delusion
A trap of fantasy
That burns everyone at some point
The truly faithful more than the rest

Heartache can not deture them from trying
Every sneaky pause for their cause
I was one of these
And now it's all over
My face is cracking
My eyes are unstable
I am terrified
This whole pristine act will crumble
And everyone will know
What deception really means

 

The more I read this the more I like it. different things keep popping up at me. Waht a long strange trip it is eh? Just be true to yourself and you and you will never go too wrong.

 

Inevitably you will find yourself turned from these dark woods, back to the Path from whence you stumbled... yet it may be remarked: some of us make new Paths by stumbling, that others may later carry on.

 

This poem displays a truth a lot of people feel but never want to admit to feeling