im in alot of pain, alot..... i had eatin spicey foods 2 days ago, later on that day i had this peice of skin hanging from my mouth, so i thout it was just minor loose skin, so i decided to peal it off...well it pealed down the back of my throte... and started severley bleeding... The picture below shows where it occured How can i over come this pain? I have thought about 2 things Cutting a limb off, and suicide.
ahh! that happend to me. but not with spicy food since im spanish and im used to it. but with lots of drinking everclear and smoking out of a metal pipe. itll stay like that for a while . it must hurt like shit when u swallow stuff . i went to the doctor and she said itll go away. takes some time... try to smoke some gaja or take some pain killers
so i realize when i sleep i dont feel pain...... im learning how to self meditate, when i reach the astral plain all pain disapates. Yesterday i had an effective and very clear prospective of the meditation state i was in, probably one of the best ones i ever had. I actualy saw my body lying exactly where i was in my house...seeing everything, exacty how it was when i was awake...i heard music, and hear a couple of faint voices witch i would call, "GUIDES" they were telling me what might controll me as i heard, Demons were near. I gave it some time, shit kind of got hay wire as my main goal was to figure out how to maintain a fully concious state (beeing awake) and under go pain without feeling it, like i was when i was meditating. I belive i am catching on to somthing extremely knowlegeable if only i can get back into that same exact state. In some types of meditation styles, you request allied entitys to gaurd your open spirit from evil demon entitys. By me hearing voices chanting "Demons Are near" i had to worry about it, witch side tracked me into getting out of my meditated state. If only this didnt happen i might of learned somthing that is only told to the few people that know how to conciously meditite, i.e. those who use techeniques of meditiation while in physicle combat to avoid pain.
