This is awesome. I just feel like every time I read something of yours, it's talking right to me. Stay strong, dude. I know it's the toughest thing you will ever do, but I have seen it happen.If you EVER want to just talk, please email me..I will not say that I know how you feel (no one can say that), but I will say that I know the absolute torture I went through (still going through, but easier) drseussplayland@aol.com -Tristen