who else is lost in this life ?

I don't a feather or anything? Just "Believe"?? Man... Dumbo had it good man.

 

are u stoned?

 

Not quite yet.

 

well i suggest smokin a doob and hittin that bridge at great speed!

 

workin' on it.

 

make sure u msg me if u fly....cos uno i might always wonder what happened otherwise....

 

Of course.. I should tell you though I'm not likely to wanna go anywhere here in a minute, so I might just put off that experiment for another day. (Stupid bridge shouldn't be so far away!)

 

well perhaps u can learn a different way then...obviously u r just too lazy to learn..haven't u ever heard of the greater good?

 

Sure, sure, It's just to really do some good for the greater I'd have to find someone to hold the cam and I don't think anyone here would just stand there and let me jump. They just don't seem to get that if I don't jump the experiment can't go forward.

 

I feel like I am an actor, as a career,not by choice. Lost. Every time I open up my apartment door and step into the hall it begins. Endless fake 'hello's" My acting is slipping as I no longer have the abiliy to even force a smile upon my face or admit I am doing "fine' Just to escape my apartment building living a fabricated lie.

Chemically restrained with sedatives and have become a statistic, in reality, the pain that eats away at my life is solved by them with man made manufactured medications. Slowly trying ot pick op the remaining pieces in my life0 in which I still do have control. Thsi is me speking and the here and the noiw i am severly depressed however always was told that "this is not you speaking, this is an aspect of your mental illness. No, this is what is left of me not being fake, expressing emotions (those which I stil have control ofl Ppeace

 

hehe yeah so true....pity a psycho like me doesnt live next door to u..then i could help u realise your destiny and how much good u will really do for the world!

 

well heaps of poeple feel like it is hard to do the everyday..so we wait for something better to never come.....so ur mental illness would be called hating people? i can really empathise.....but seriosuly, i dont know your condition and what u have brought into your space but medicating urself is not a good idea...but if u feellikeits a fake to smile and say hello tyhen u should never feel obligated to do it and keepup appearances... try and read some good literature and maybe get out a bit...even if u dont like it u never know what will happen in life if u r actually living...

 

I don't think it's nessasry to act like you're glad to see your neighbors, to smile and say "Hi" or whatever. I tried doing that when I actually felt that way and one of my neighbors went psycho on me. I deffinately wouldn't do that if I wasn't feelin' it. Who cares what makes society happy, what makes you happy?
I heard about this guy that will drive for hours and hours for his favorite cereal- he seemed all kinds of happy.
The point of that is- find somethign that makes you happy, even if it's a tiny little thing like cereal and go for it!

 

I found my happiness, I know it doesn't sound like it from what I wrote earlier in this thread but I have.
I believe life has meaning, I believe in destiny. If I'm wrong it doesn't matter, I'm still basically happy with myself.
The only problem I have with my life is that other people don't seem to get that and try to act like I'm less than ___ (whatever) because I don't have ___(whatever). and that';s just a bunch of BS.

 

Is it cosof that advice i gave you? it is isn't it? Aha, i knew it.... i work miracles! You shallnow refer tome as ur guru!

 

LOL!
Sorry guru, found it awhile back.