well today my one friend wasnt there. the one friend i sit with at lunch. its not fun when your a loner at lunch. i was so...alone. its not like my friend is the only person in my lunch that i know...its just that everyone else hates me and constantly makes fun of me for stuff that they dont even understand. in fact a couple days ago they told me that all hippies are just pothead peacelovers and that we should go die. well anyways...back to my lunch situation. i had absolutly no one to sit with. so what did i do?? i sat there reading my book (The Jungle by Upton Sinclair...very good book) and occasionaly looked up to see people looking at me like i was a freak when they walked by. i dont really mind sitting alone. that doesnt bother me. what does bother me is when people give me looks like they have something that i dont. it also bothers me when people feel bad for me and think that i have no friends. i actually kind of like sitting alone at lunch. its peaceful. it gives me time during the day to think and read and do whatever. is that so bad?? why do people make sitting alone seem like some kind of punishment?? im not sure if this made sense...but i just needed to let it all out.
You ovbiously are talking to the wrong people and people don't hate the hippy they may just hate the person.
oh i so know what you mean! i like doing things on my own and sitting somewhere alone can be great. but then people automatically think that you have no friends and that you HAVE to sit alone.. it's just stupid..
What is the problem of people thinking that? Or do you want friends just so people see you have friends? I am terribly sorry, but I find your reasoning pretty stupid as well.
no it's just stupid that you can't sit somewhere alone without people feeling all sorry for you.. that's all..
oh man. i used to really dig on being alone way back when i first started school. didnt even phase me, shit nothin ever really did. then it sorda went assbackwards and everything at once started to phase me. not pleasent to say the least, negative intentions and resentments create ugly realities, but thats the power of thought i guess, a blessing or a curse...also remember, some people just dont mesh with you. you have your energy and they have theirs, some peoples energy can really fuck yours up and certain places can be almost toxic to our souls. for example, whenever i ride my bike near the grocery store or city, i get an enormous feeling of resentment and disgust for all the ugliness humanity has created and commited, even though i know its all just a reaaaaaally bad dream somehow.. its still almost impossible for me to avoid negative feelings there. so i try to steer clear of all that for the most part. some people might enjoy the hell out of the city, but thats their own path you know, and they havea to follow that. so i guess what im trying to say is, maintain some balance in your life and try to follow your heart.... keep reading the jungle and books like that and ignoring those cocksuckers for the most part and youll be just fine, for right now anyway. and be sure to turn vegetarian when your done reading the jungle, that alllllways helps, thats what that book is about right?
there's so many cool things to being alone, i had a hugely lonsome time all during highschool. and even though it was shit, i liked it...(that may be the clinical insanity) umm make the situation a happy one! :s
i think people kind of grow out of that.... i spend a lot of time alone when im in public, if they care that much about why you're alone then it just shows how pathetic their lives are aye.
That's perfectly legitimate, but it's hard to advocate when everyone around you is like that. Pheonix, you should find more places like the hip forums where you can get aways from people like that and relate with others more like you. I don't think anyone isn't worth your time, everyone has ideas and nobody's bad, it's just that they aren't into your ideas. There's a difference between being an asshole and being worthless...unless of course you're a worthless asshole...right? But in most cases you're just insulting someone for little reason if you call them a worthless asshole.
