I love ecstasy ...... Too much , since i started using it I have been going off hard core . three to four times a week , eight to ten pills a night on avereage ..... This has been going on since february .... About a month ago I went off on a crazy binder where i did like 26 pills in three days ...... I thought i would never return to my old self again .. . . So i stopped doing them for an entire month ...... everything was going great up until last monday when I decided to eat a couple West Coast Choppers ....... Bad idea .... these pills were fucking laced with meth wich I have been previousally addicted to ..... long story short the pills made me hurting , gave in and got the gak , smoked it stayed awake until thursday , bought some cocaine and about thirty more pills ...... now i sit here today awake and spun for a week with no job ... FUCK
You've expressed that you were addicted to meth before. If you are a meth addict, it is strongly discouraged to do other mind altering drugs, even alcohol and mj. You seem to express deep feelings of frustration. I don't say this to many, but i think you should check out 12-step meetings. Crystal Meth anonymous is good but AA is supposed to be the best one. It is a great program for addicts who wish to recover. The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop using/drinking. Please do yourself a favor and check out a meeting, if you think you have a problem.
Yea you have a very addicted personality in general it seems that any drug you get into you will abuse it. My best advice is to go to a treatment center or support group. Its probally not what u want to here but its better then dying. Please use people dont abuse. Use drugs for a spirtual means to enhance your thoughts and life when your not high. dont fall into just the drugs
