I cut myself last night

Last night I had an argument with my roomates, and I completely zoned out in my room. Then I had a mood swing and carved my arm like a christmas turkey.

 

i used to cut myself when i was 14/15 not cuz it was the only thing i felt i had control of. when i realised that only when you quit trying have control of your life,
you can live your life in harmony.{ go with the flow, live your life in asha, let it be}
i stopped cutting myself. i know that when you start doing it regularly it becomes an addiction.

 

cutting isnt exactly stupid..its just something that happens, i cut myself and really i think that its just one of those things that society is going to have to make more acceptable..just like they did with things like smoking..its something that people do to make themselves feel better when they cant find a way to describe how they feel with words or express in any healthy ways..yah i'll admit that its not healthy and when you start it is an addiction but at the same time it makes you feel so good and so much better..and for anyone who used to cut knows exactly what im talking about, they just wont admit thats its not that bad because they think they might fall right back into it..just get over the fact that millions of people do it and that its not that bad!..its just something that happens..it is a release!

 

wait till your body is one big scar, you'll feel aweful about your scars when the 'cutting part' of your life is over.

 

Got a pic?

 

Every Saturday morning there should be a tv show giving instructions about proper cutting.

 

fucking lol. yeah, making something more understandable and treatable, and making something ACCEPTABLE are very different things....

 

Question:

Does it actually have some sort of cathartic release in and of itself? Or is it more of something you do to get other people to look at it and go "OH MY GOD, WHAT IS THAT FROM?"

I kinda picture it as more of the latter, possibly subconciously.

 

Geez insomniac, don't do that stuff you hear? I know sometimes you get so angry that you take that fury out on your own body because you have no other outlet to channel it into, but you need to find another way to deal with your emotions sweetie! Don't go hurting yourself, please!

Huge hugs...

 

are you ok today? insomnic?

 

I cut myself sometimes. Not badly and only when i get really depressed. Except for one other time

 

hmmm.

So is there a way you could occupy yourself or calm down with another activity and avoid the cutting?

 

it saddens me to hear this. please dont do this to yourself. I cut myself exactly once and then realized it was not the right way to go about things. Find a different outlet for your anger. this is not healthy. I find going for a run or a walk or excercising my ass off helps me get the anger out. When u feel like you cant handle the situation yourself and you think you may do something bad, call someone. You dont have to deal with it by yourself. There are people around you that would help you through certain situations without you having to cut yourself up. Please just dont make a habit of it, cuz once you start, you become dependent on it in a way. Its not good. But *hugs* to you. I hope you feel better and whatever the fight was about got resolved. Take care.

 

I dunno if my perspective is accurate at all, but if I feel down, I listen to some happy, uplifting, kickass music. Like the Beatles, Doors, Aquabats, Kinks (yeah kinks), and stuff like that. That usually works. Sometimes I do origami. And when I get that really down feeling where it feels like there's a big empty void in your body, I whip out my bike, pick a destination a little farther away than I'm used to, and go. Sunshine's got some good advice.

 

I went through something like this, not with cutting, but with drugs and crushing my head and things like that. I felt a drive behind it all, a HUGE hunger, behind my belly, driving me and driving me to do the harmful things I did. So I did them. And I hit rock bottom. And I decided to heal. There's a possiblity I could be dead now if I hadn't hit rock bottom and make that decision. Certainly I'd be living in extreme mediocrity.

Let people do what they feel they gotta do. One never knows what the deep and life-changing consequences will be.

 

the other day i went out with some friends and there was this girl who knew one of the people i was with and we were trying clothes on, and this girl took off her long sleeved top to reveal massive scars obviously from cutting. they looked really big and horribly marked on her skin. I never brought myself to do such things to my body when i was younger, i did more of a psychological self-destruction. I guess i was a little too self conscious about the scarring, I dont really see the point of cutting your body, it leaves marks that are there forever. Emotions come and go, but these scars will be a constant reminder that at some point in your life, you lost the plot... i dont now, it seems very extreme and hurtful. Love yourself!

 

some people starve themselves, some people stuff themselves, some people sleep around too much, some do drugs, some cut. it's all the same self-punishment.

 

Hmm. Ive been a cutter for three years. Its pretty scary how easy it is to get hooked on. I cut pretty bad last week but b4 that I hadn't done it in like 3 months or so. I am trying to stop completely becuz I want to live my life free... not bound by something like cutting. It is very addictive and every day I have an urge to do it... and it takes a lot of strength to resist it but it feels good when you can get thru the day without giving in. believe me, its jus no way to live.

 

Cutting is an addiction. The same kinds of changes go on in the brain chemicals when a person cuts as when they are given morphine. Cutting is a way to self medicate. It does have longer effects, the scaring for example. You need to try other things to get the release and comfort that cutting gives you. In the mean time while you are working on that you need to be as careful as you can be with the cuts and try to avoid scars or infection. I think one way to start is to work on the process of liking yourself. That is probably the hardest thing that we all have to do. Nevertheless, you need to know that everyone feels like they are not quite as good as others are. That is just the way people are. However, almost everyone you meet pretends to like themselves. O yea I am doing fine is what people try to put across. If you buy into that crap, you start feeling as if you are the only one with a poor self-image and that is just not true. Learning to like yourself is one of the hardest things that people have to do.

 

thanks for that hippypaul... i tend to feel like most ppl are fine and have it all together, and then when i start freaking out over little things that i got myself into... i just feel so trapped and alone and scared and just bleh... and then i feel stupid and scared and like a freak for feeling that way. i had an urge to cut myself last night actually... i've done it a few times in the past and it does have a feeling of relief attatched to it.. i've also binged on food, and slept all day (slept through important parts of my life) and avoided goign out with ppl.. avoided chances to make myself happy.

it really sucks, i must say, and i try so hard not to get to that place again, but sometimes i just feel helpless and give in... *sigh* but yeah, we're definitely not alone.