whhoah well you know normally you think back at your childhood and you might remember a few events but when you were a baby and a tod, its pretty hard to remember what it was like back then, thinkning and percieving. it just sorta seems alien, when your a child to when your a grown person. but i am stoned atm from the crumbs i found of my mums stash (it was good shit) and i actually, when i think about it and someteims not, remember it. like.. its so wierd. my whole 17 years is for the first time impressing on my how long in fact it was. 17 years is so long when i think about it, i mean, for me whos obviosuly 17. i cant quite remember specifics (except i can of bits that were filmed that i can think of in my head) but just.. the 'egos' of each age. the way i percieved everything (evidenyly perception of everythign changes as you gain experience) this is amazing. im happy
my whole 17 years is for the first time impressing on my how long in fact it was. 17 years is so long when i think about it, i mean, for me whos obviosuly 17. LOL..do u think you said 17 enough in those secentences????
i could have said it more but that seemed to leave an impresison in my head. caus while i cant concieve it in as much depth i am still comprehending this whole life thing as being so long. because after a certain point life is like all the same, but you change. but when your a baby everything is comepltetyly different because you havnt learnt what thigns are or what theyre for or why things happen and that. its jut so different. but everything thats in the past was once in the present
yes amen to that ...thats kinda happened 2 me before too. lol. sometimes wen im stoned i get all these flashbacks from my childhood that i kinda 4got bout..u know?
Ive been thinking about my childhood alot lately, and it feels like I am about to wake up and be 6 or something because I can still remember it just like it was yesterday, especially if I run into objects from my childhood like toys, or a canteen or book or something. I get to feeling like I am a kid again.
I love being stoned and getting that nostalgic feeling of childhood. Like, getting reminded of how simple and fun things were back then. Those daydreams are nice
i recently started playing some video games with an old friend of mine.. that we played over 6 years ago... i cant believe how much better i am at some of them now lol, i feel so much more coordinated than i did back then.. i thought id be shit caus out of practice.. but after like 5 mins of getting used to it, on the first sitting, i finnished the game and got like 2nd highest score.. i used to play for ages trying to get that score lol (game lylat wars on n64)
I get stoned alot and think about how much easier it was in childhood. I seem to remember not having to worry about finances and whether or not we were going to be able to eat some nights. But then I hit 13 and had to start realizing that we were on the verge of being flat broke. We ended up homeless and on wellfare. Not homeless as in living on the streets, but homeless as in no place to call home and living from place to place with relatives. But I always remember those times when I was just carefree and had no responsibilities. It makes me both happy and sad at the same time. I also start to wonder how many other people are going through times of poverty and are fucked up in the head because they have no father in their life. It upsets me to know that other people are growing up like I grew up.
I know what you mean Bill, sometimes when I toke but mostly when I trip I get kind of 'flash back memories' from my childhood, its not like I can see myself as a toddler or anything, Its like I experience a thought I had when I was just an infant, kind of like a deja vu feeling. When I get these they make me feel all warm and good inside, a real feeling of familiarity. I hope I can connect some of these thoughts I experience to actual events in my childhood, through this I believe I can 'remember' my infancy.
thing is, some of the memory/flashback/perceptual time travel i did the day i wrote this thread.. well they seemed.. well see i couldnt actually remember all of them happening.. and i wasnt necessarily sure what they were until i thought about them after, for some... because they seemed to go back to when i was an actual baby. the thigns i remembered were random moments of perception, though, once i realised what i was doing, i started thinkning about events that i do remember and that was somewhat fun after that day i started taking a lot of interest int he perception of babies, and children, all the learning that we take for granted as grown people. opening thread back up reminded me.. of the utter profanity that the experience was, it was so amazing, because previously i had trrried to remember things far back but never been able to, but thats because i had never been able to change my whole perception from the bounds that have grown in me
i know what you mean, it always seems weird to look back on a typical school day back in elementary school... it all seemed to be so long. now days go by in an instant.
I wish I could get high off the crumbs of the bud again.....perhaps its time for a brake. After tonight I aint gonna toke for a few days and see how that goes. I remember a few moments from when I was small playing with baby toys and I remember when I could say momma and papa I would always call them over and then I couldnt say nothing else lol. Funny thing is everytime I did that my dad would just say "ok thats great" and walk off again to sit down ,he watched me an all but watched TV too hahaha.
i remember 1988, i had some torn up jeans and liked playing nintendo. Alf was on tv back then. woohoo
