i love not being able to do anything.

seriously. i love feeling like im in prison. it's so freakin wonderful.

you should try it someday.

 

You can always do me if you want

 

I hate that you cant do everything. Or Juggalo4ever for that matter.

 

Dont you get bored? Cos like i would always say id love not to have to do anything, but today i was so frikkin bored and i have loads of choices, i could watch TV, listen to music, go on the computer, call someone, text someone, ANYTHING and i just didnt want to and it just pissed me off more and more. I think its made me sick for some reason. Ive been walkin round the house feeling sick with boredom and just feeling lonely...hmm youre probs all thinking now...*weirdo*

 

i've felt that way most of my life. for me there is nothing
that sucks worse. i don't love it at all. i have no use
in hell for any part of it.

the only time in my life i've ever felt truely to be my own
person was the ten years i spent up in oregon where while
i found many casual friends i remained for the most part a
strainger among them, and while i did not seek to
avoid developing closer ties of intimacy, none the less,
for better or worse, none developed.

there seems to be a collective self inslavement that western
corporate, monetary, excitement and accumulation addiction,
seems to be persuing at supersonic speed with a hell bent
and bitter vengence.

it boggles my mind the resemblence to self mutilation this
refusal of the majority to connect the fairly obvious and
self evident dots that are right out in front of everyone,
however much they may contradict how we've all been raised
to perceive and perpetuate each other being.

this is of course the problem with it. story tellers could
do much to break this cycle rather then perpetuate it, were
they too not motivated by the same circular persuit of
symbolic personal gain at the often concealed price of real
harm and loss to everyone and everything

=^^=
.../\...

 

its called sarcasm..sheesh

N-E-way, I too adore the pleasure of not being able to leave my house. the new and wonderful, exciting things on TV. Counting how many times the AC clicks on in an hour. Getting all dressed up in my torn t-shirt and oversized jogging pants to go absolutely nowhere......I gotta slow down before I have a heart attack

 

try it ssomeday?! no need! im already there honey!

althou tryin ta plan...cant get stuck in this goddamn 'place' again. there really is alot to do..ya kno.

 

hehe, missfontella... that's hilarious.

well, the i live with regulates what i do half the time so whatever.

i got my way this time though.

 

hey folks?


what are you talking about?

 

we're talking about the fact that im not allowed to do anything. at least, that's what i was talking about.... heh

 

i can do anything

iiam the lizard king

 

Interval,

Come on now! You are going to have to give me a little more credit than that! I can read. I know you were talking about not being able to do something. It is written right there, in plain English. I got that much.

What I meant when I asked "what are you talking about?", was why can’t you do anything? Are you locked in a cage? Did you get hit by a car? Have you become a veggie? Did you catch Ebola and are thus confined to a bubble in your room? Is it raining outside? Do you have to watch the pet/kid/something? Are you waiting for a phone call? Is something in the oven? Do you have too much to do?

People say you can do whatever you set your mind to but that is crap. But, fuck, if you want to go out, do it!

Or just become a lizard king.

 

What I meant when I asked "what are you talking about?", was why can’t you do anything? Are you locked in a cage? Practically.

Did you get hit by a car? No.

Have you become a veggie? Kinda.

Did you catch Ebola and are thus confined to a bubble in your room? Dont mess with my mind there....

Is it raining outside? It was but thats not what this is about

Do you have to watch the pet/kid/something? Are you waiting for a phone call? Is something in the oven? Do you have too much to do? and all the rest no

People say you can do whatever you set your mind to but that is crap. But, fuck, if you want to go out, do it! it is CRAP. i want to do lots of things and set my mind to lots but i have SOOOOOO many set backs. blah.

Or just become a lizard king.[/QUOTE]

 

i agree. i think more details are needed for us to fully understand

 

i dont even know what details to give. let's just say when i wrote this i was talking about my husband

and its so much deeper then that.

sooo much.

 

so you're nuts?

Are you actually crazy?

 

i am not nuts. im not actually crazy. i have a horrible husband and i have panic attacks and i get afraid to go outta my house. when ever i want to, i have him telling me what to do.

but fine, that makes me actually nuts and crazy.

whatever, maybe i am.

 

Have you seen a qualified doctor for these quirks?

 

well i am sorry that you are being mentally tormented. that is a hard place to be . i wish you luck in finding solutions

 

ive seen a million qualified doctors and trust me....

they cant figure me out in the 15 mins. once a month i could afford.