I have been fantacizing lately about just disapearing. Not vanishing into thin air or anything. I mean I sometimes want to drop out of society, or at least the society in which I currently reside. I'm talking about leaving everything. Packing a bag and going away, and possibly never seeing anyone from my former life again. Don't get me wrong, I love many of the people in my life. That is just a wierd little idea that has begun to creap into my thoughts more and more often. ugh... dark thoughts...
i think it's really why people go on vacation. for many total escape is not viable or even a right. so why not take a vacation?
yeah, I've seen the appeal to...... you just kinda feel you wanna start over, meeting new people and the like.....
but you know what?... im sure if you did pack up and move on.... you'd see the grass wasn't greener....
I feel like quitting a lot of things, like school, though I know I shouldn't... it's just so tempting ot not go, to not care (particularly about the required classes that are unrelated to my major, like this stupid finance class I have a midterm in tomorrow)
i think a sabbatical is needed at least once a year to get away from the stressful harsh dirty city life and get back to nature and purification... i finish my degree in the next week and then will be entering th ework force i guess..before i do that my boyfriend and i are planning a trip up north (Queensland, Australia) into the rainforest where i grew up..my parents stil own land there...we wont have comfy beds and luxuries, but plenty of swimming in the river and waterfall, and sun, and rainforest, and fresh air to clean the mind..and fruit to clean the body... It is going to be so beautiful and wondrous! probs do it for about a month! hell fucking yeah!
