Through my life.. for some reason i have always had to have a go at someone about something, for reasons not known to myself. Not to say that, when i am mad at someone i don't have a reason, its just i can't seem to let anything go. Recently, a girl i am or was friends with (who i will call 'Jolene' for sakes of not naming) has made me really really angry with her. It started at the beginning of this year, she came to visit me in Manchester for a night out. We ended up kissing in a night club and eventually slept together at my place, although (and don't laugh) didn't end up having sex because i told her that we were just good friends, as to be honest i am scared of what it might lead to. Anyway, Jolene goes home and nothing more happens, until late this summer. We were in a local pub before going out to another night club when the coversation comes up about what happened that night, infront of people i know i might add which added some embarrasment to the situation, saying how she was drunk and that it didn't mean anything. Anyway, later that night, she kisses me again in a hall way in the night club as i was heading to the bathroom. So i figured, okay... i do like her enough to want to be with her now.. so after closing, i made a move on her to which she then instantly pulled away and rejected me saying we were just friends. I left the club making my own way home feeling embarrassed and upset. In conversations i had, had with her previous to the encounters, we told me that she used to like my older brother at school, and how she wanted to be with him. I tried not to let it bother me as i figured it was some school time crush... however, this week, my brother told me she met him in a club and told him how she used to like him.. then followed to ask how i was doing. This has now made me really mad, i have texted her saying i don't wanna speak to her again and now we are no longer friends... This seems to happen to me alot, more than most. I end up hating people around me because they lie to me, or make conversation about me, or generally try to piss me off.. so i end up hating myself and others around me.... am i right to get so angry, or have i got a problem?
If I may... You are overreacting. Remember, when one is drunk, one may lose one's sense of judgement. And it would also help greatly if you gained more self confidence.