Again. It just seems like everytime that something even REMOTELY good happens to me, something 3 times as bad comes to take its place. Wtf, why does my life like to kick me in the teeth. Someone slit my throat and end my misery, I'm ready to call it quits. Actually, I'll do it myself. Adios.
Yeah, I had a cigarette...I feel a little bit better, but things aren't looking that great right now.
i have felt something like you have before ( not exactly the same obviously coz we are different people...and to say i know how ur feeling is both irritating and false) what i did was have abig old breakdown... but what helped was to remember all the things that ever made me happy...and cling to them with all my might...to thrive on making my friends happy and gradually it has made me happy.
unfortunatley, i know exactly where your comin from. life is reeeeeeeally cruel sometimes. and if i thought suicide were a solution or an end to my problems, id be planning it out already. i thought about it tonight, not like thought about doing it and taking it seriously, but just considering and thinking about it i guess... and then the song vincent by don mclean came on,weird... that shit will mess with you man, show you the amazingly empty depths of yourself, which is kinda badass to say youve seen and experienced in a way. but gooodamn, that shit hurts...no clue what to tell you, wish i did... life is suffering. it seems to me, the cruelty only lets up when you embrace it and get REALLY depressed for a while, and then you have a little afterglow buzz that lasts maybe a couple hours, and then your back to emptiness again, what fun life will get better(i hope), things take time to unfold.
