anti-depressant , and psychospiritual breakthrough

Hi , i havent posted on the site in the long time
but ill give a brief history about me
and the synopsis of what salvia has done for me


history: all my life ive had"issues"
been prescribed ssri's to anti-psychotics
none of these really helped me
i have been mentally addicted to marijuana
for the past 2 years ... and it is my intention
to quit ... salvia will help with that , but its not the main purpose.


synopsis 1 of salvia experience breakthrough:

there was a time where i was using salvia extract everyday for 2 weeks
this opened my mind so much , to new thoughts and concepts of myself and society. everyday id go to school end up crying , because all the suffering i saw around me and inside me.
this really HELPED MY SPIRITUAL SELF AS I WAS INTRODUCED TO A NEW ME. i felt 'awakened'



synopsis 2 ( recent use of salvia ):

my mother is trying to find alternatives to marijuana
and notices my medications have not helped with my problems
i was recently hospitalized as it has been a part of my life those nasty institutions....
so i came back to salvia yesterday ... after a week of stealing money
and buying weed , i was in a recession that i didnt want to be in
had no insight on life , just a depressed peice of 'shit'

after taking one hit , of shitty 10x extract ( shitty as it was salvia zone's product only product they sell at my headshop)
i basically just perspirated , and felt odd ... no deep introspective trip...
after the effects , i felt as my energy and motivation to head further in life
was rejuvinated.

now i know salvia is not serotonergic , and i know im only 16 ( so what do i know is it in my head?)
it surely is not as even today , i feel great.

this drug has most deffinatly an anti-depressant effect to it
and also helps my spiritual journey in life.


there is a case study on erowid ... about these anti-depressant effects
i have experienced this first hand

i hope with the visit to my psychiatrist today , i can help salvia get a better reputation one person at a time ... and hopefully will become a case study myself ...

 

salvia helps you get the freedom to re-orient yourself.
putting yourself on track is still pretty hard work.
but it sounds like you are up to it.
keep us posted

 

recently i have found this drug , surely is also a manifest drug.
whenever i have regretted doing it , lets say behind my moms back ( its dif now)
i wouldnt trip off it ... and when i would expect to trip hard i wouldnt trip either

but when my mindstate is mellow , or in a pensive thought
i do have a very enlightening trip. and sometimes even can
meditate for a bit on it

 

Lil-big-bro: wow man. you are off to a busy start this time around, eh? A few words of wisdom that made a HUGE difference for me back "when i was your age" (actually still have all that's great about being 16 still with me, thank Bob):
1. Is really ok to assemble a healthy mind and balanced ego before "blowing" it (ie using mind expanding, boundary disolving compounds).
2. Good (live) foods, fun exercise and deep deep sleep go a long way to making life a good "trip" in an of itself and def form the soundest basis for any psychedelic journeys in the future.
3. There are a lot of ways to "work with" (play with) socalled "ordinary" (nothing ordinary about it, of course) consciousness that is both fascinating (trippy?) as well as really great for your development of sensitivity, wonder, gratatude, discrimination and self-understanding..... all great qualities to bring to any moment, psychedelic or non. Ways: time in nature, stillness, silence, deep breathing, dance, deep friendship/communication, love, growing a garden, spending time with a new born baby or a dying person, journaling, looking in the miror, chanting, druming, seasonal ritual, reading the highest poetry and deepest thinkers, laughter....... ALL of it pure magic.

Here's what was proved necessary in my case and how it seems to me:
Gestation, birth and being raised in this world by parents with even the best intentions still lays a lot on a young, developing human: fears, behavior requirements, stratagies for "getting" loved (or even taken care of), etc. So first time that i tripped (age 16: LSD) was a miracle of rememberence and return to my (our) birthright: i am a being full of light in a world full of wonder and it just fucking great to be alive and i'm good enough as i am and its really enough just to be a peace-loving life-loving wandering fool if that's what i want to be.......etc.

But then MORE and MORE tripping revealed itself to NOT equal more and more insight in that same way. I had gotten the message, had the view, but was not at the level of personal evolution where i could experience that HIGH of a vibration in my moment to moment experience. And so that's where that list above comes from.... that list is no recipe but the kinds of things i learned to do to protect and grow towards what had been revealed in deep psychedelic highs (and lows).

You sound like a magic guy. Surround yourself with great friends bro and really learn to let the past go, love yourself and LIGHTen-up. Make the healthy choices in all that silly little things each day and the big choices just kinda flow by themselves.


Stay in touch.
Hope this helps or at least you dig that some older brother cared enough to really take you in and send his deepest blessings.