Before I accepted that my homosexuality was not something I should be ashamed of, I used to say slightly homophobic remarks so that people wouldn't believe I was gay. I'm very ashamed of it now and if I had it to do over again I would not have done it.
I've always been pretty much accepting, but between the time I realized I wasn't straight and the time I came out, though I was accepting, and I KNEW that I wasn't straight, I felt a little strange around people who I knew wern't straight... ossibly because inside I just wanted to scream out that I wasn' straight, but I kept restraining myself...
heh i say that too. its not like i say it in a bad way (i mean, how could i.. ) its just one of those things i say a lot without even thinkin about it. oh and in answer to the question, no not at all, i've never been homophobic.
i was never homophobic when it came to other people...i just didn't want to be gay because of all the shit that comes with it...the abuse and ridicule...but i am very much over than. i never hated/was afraid of gay people.
i think had we been, we would have had a much harder time coming out to ourselves. I know someone who is extremely homophobic, but I think he's gay because he associates nearly everything you say with gay sex. He'll probably never admit this to himself though. I was never homophobic, which made it somewhat easy to admit that i am attacted to guys.
When I was about eleven there was a girl in school who got called a lesbian, and I used to laugh about it and join in, partly so that I didn't get called a lesbian too. But I remember saying something about it to her one day and I made her cry, I felt extremly bad about it and never did or said anything like it after that. Were good friends now anyway, shes not a lesbian though, which is a pity
