All you can say when I ask you why I should continue to live my miserable life is “God Loves You.” So I try to kill myself to be with Him. You say, “God says that it’s a sin to kill yourself. And so I live in misery. I finally find happiness- she is my whole world. And all you can say is “God says it’s a sin to love another woman. So I put her aside and return to misery. You say, “God wants you to be happy.” When I ask you how, you say, “Open yourself to him.” So I try- drug after drug, hoping for a glimpse, a single word from God, who loves me. You say, “It’s a sin” So I stop. I get clean. I go through all the agonies of Hell to be pure for Him again. You tell me that marriage is the answer, because it’s what women were meant to do. So I try. You say, “Good for you.” We love each other, we really do. But we also love others. An “open relationship” most people would call it. You say, “That’s not what God had in mind.” You tell me it’s sinful. You tell me it’s wrong. I look at you and say. “Funny, he hasn’t said anything.” I tell you- “All these years I listened to you telling me what God says, but never once did I hear His voice.” I tell you- “You told me once that God wanted me to be happy. But every time I’m happy, You tell me it’s a sin” I say, “Fuck you, and fuck your God” You cry- you scream- you rant and rave- and through it all, God is silent
fuckin outta sight ....those were some great words, that you arranged quite beautifully if i do say so myself...and i do..right on...
It seems that everything is a sin. But, If we lie to ourselves and wear masks...that's okay. Never pretend. Find. Create. Sculpt. Be...yourself.
