I shouldnt feel this way about you .... I shouldnt even have thoughts about you... You are not mine, you do not belong to me...you dont belong in my thoughts, or in my dreams...... I dont know why but you make me weak,...maybe it is because of the manner in which we speak... Though i try to make carefull my words...It is evident that i have said things that should have never been said.... I have professed my want for you.....I have ,..without bribery confessed my feelings for you..... I am ashamed of my lack of control..., and i hurt so fucking much due to the absence of "the concept of reality"..., of my reality, of your reality,..of reality in general... I cant have you ...i cant touch you...i cant feel you ...>> YOu are a figmant of my fucking infactuation... I torture myself with thoughts of you...I punish myself because i will never have you.. I cry real tears for a loss that was never mine to lose, for a reality unreal.... YOU do know that in my head, in my body.."i love you".. just as much or more than anyone who has ever actually touched you....but..... YOU do not belong to me ...you dont belong in my thoughts ....you dont belong in my dreams..
can i say that i know exactly what you speak of when you write this poem becuase i too have been in the same spot loving someone that never was mine to begin with and its hard
I wanna say its good to hear when someone relates...but i guess not so good for either you or me or n e one else who relates to something painfull,.....
