I have seen myself, replayed in my mind(without eyes in my mind).. When I look, I see myself lose control... In my head images like clips, or scenes from someone elses life, or mind.. I cant ever stop myself when i see myself because its too late.. NOw my own image haunts me.... I feel bad, just really bad... Sadness a plague that has consumed me for so long. I smile, I laugh, i enjoy life, but still the person i wish i wasnt lies buried beneath these scars.. My head filled with screams, comotion, flashes of some tormented soul(s).. Still, very still....i breathe , i live, i carry on... In this life, this life that civilization has constructed for me..... The simplicity that disguises complexity, and the complexity that ultimately is simple..... Some things should be left alone, but nothing ever is...
