6 am here so this may not be a coherent message. For the last 2 years my partner has done things to give me the express that her life with me has been regrertable, and that I'm something of a bad partner. For two years I've seen good things turn to bad, I've seen my accademic and professional life suffer. I'm now retracting from other social relationships, trying not to sleep, eating less, and generaly depressed. I feel like startign fights in the street to remove the hum drum daily routine of failure and missery that greets me every waking hour. I feel trapped in my own liofem, and truely feel I can neither escape my predicament, nor can I improve uppon it. Earlier this week I vented everything that is my missery, and now i still feel as though there is nothing left. I have a semester to fight my way through, and I can not afford failure. I work to pay for bills I'll never catch up on, and have student debt mounting as I strive for a fable light at the end ofthe tunnel. And every morning I awake and know I yes I am the villian, and I'll never realize my potential. My moment is gone, and all I can do is hang myself, or watch my years fade into obscurity, never to be remembered, never to have enriched the human canvas. Discuss.
Analyse your choices, why you made them, whether or not they were right. Look at your relationship-is it working...why, or why not? Do you love your partner? What would your ideal relationship look like? If you think the relationship is failing and theres not enough love on both sides to fix it then go. It sounds to me like youre not really doing the things that make you happy...whats your own life like, your social life, your interests? What are your ambitions and are you on your way to fulfilling them? You need to ask yourself these questions. Lifes too short to remain in tedious patterns of negativity, dullness, nothingness...first talk to yourself. When you have the solutions, or have ideas near to solutions, discuss them with the people who matter(e.g-your partner) Thats what id do, anyway. Good luck -Maxi P.s-your moment is never gone. But seize life now, so that you have more of it. Nothing can stop a strong will...especially not something irrelevant and insignificant, like a student debt, or something easily put right like misused energy. It sounds to me like all the foundations are there for you. Now its just your turn to stand up and say, this is exactly what i want and this is how ill get it.
Im happy I like to think my happiness is the cause of awareness, then thought about said awareness. I have been clinically depressed but have seen my way out of this. I now still get periods of being depressed, but then, who doesnt? Overall, i am happy. Happy to be alive, to love, to see, to breathe. In the case of the original poster, it sounded to me just like he'd become trapped into a routine which wore him down. And it sounded perhaps like he just needed a change of direction, new plans, a fresh outlook. To think about his aims and goals and purpose...what he truly wants from life. And obviously spending time with people who make you feel bads not so good, so he needs to look at why thats happening, whose fault it is, how it can be either solved or how he could move on. But anyway, im not sad Have been through that Xx
lol thanks Well, if you have been once, then you can be again. Definitely. That shows that its just the circumstances that changed, or the people around you...not you. Some people seem forever determined to remain unhappy. But youve tasted happiness, and you want it back, right? Im pretty sure that for all people who are lucky enough to live in developed countries, like us...who have people who care about them, and dont have a mental disability, the will to be happy is enough. Were in the band of the lucky...the ones who have the power to create their own lives and shape them how they like. We should use this power wisely and make the most of it all, before its too late. I suppose the "secret" is different for everyone, seeing as everyones concept of happiness is different...but in my case, my depression started to weaken when i began to think about goals. The future, my purpose...what i wanted to do with this precious little time id been given. I then realised i wanted to travel, to get qualifications...and im currently working towards this. It was really just about looking inside myself, and being straight with myself. "Life is short. Do you really want to spend it in misery, degradation, meaningless days?" Of course i didnt. I was just lost. Anyway ill shush now Its 1am and im not making sense. I hope alls good for you soon Xx
well, you know what? you just need something new to spark your interest. one day a new chick will treat you how you should be treated, and you'll snap outta the fog. or, one day you'll have an interesting opportunity that'll take your mind and/or body far away from the normal troubles. sounds like you need a change of pace. is there any way you can remove yourself from the typical for a while?
man i can relate. i escape by sleep. when not sleep, drugs. anything but the real world. it's fuckin a,awfdulaweful i know, i need help. you don't need to tell me. this is true confessions right?
i miss being a little kid and hiding behind the row boat in the backyard until the whole neighborhood was looking for me.. that was my only "escape".. i have no row boat now
If you take the time to sleep you'll find you feel much less depressed and it will be easier to do things when your awake.
